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For the Shire.
My anxiety undulates with the week. Typically higher around Sunday and Monday. Lower around today, Deadlift Day. (A Thursday.) It bumped last week as I endeavoured again to do NaNoWriMo. An...
my interior monologuer can be such a drama queen
Coworker Robert happened to pop in on his day off. Said something about how his mom wanted dorito tacos. Random, but not surprising. He’s a good errand boy. Which got me doing mental math fo...
Maybe next week.
Last week: calm happiness for no reason This week: calm sadness for no reason And they say only women have a monthly emotional rhythm. I’m used to flaccid emotions, but I’d like my libido to re...
The Sweaty Panty Barometer of Health.
I woke up yesterday with that very slight scratchy in the back of my throat. You know you’re not actively sick, but it’s coming. Tore through my deadlift session, moving many kilograms of inanim...
Vulva People.
Ya know. When I would write elaborate crap referring to women as vulva endowed beasts or some nonsense, it was a joke. It was silly. And if you said, Timmy, I’m not just a pussy, I would agree ...
I got the deskgirl's name.
It’s a big deal insofar that it wasn’t a big deal at all. I lift at the dead of the night. Usually between midnight and 2am. Either the deskgirl is there, or the deskboy. Deskboy? Never real...
Novel plot pitch.
So, in real life, my sister has not reproduced. What if she had kids. And her kids eventually want to go a Grand Adventure to visit their cooky Uncle. Puts me in the novel without being omnipre...
I rate you 7/11.
I’d like to check out your goods at 2am any day of the week.
I'll pass.
I think I’m opting out of this Political Season. I’m usually a loud liberal blowhard. I feel more like a defeated optimist. There is so much noise, and I’d rather not have it perturb my headspa...
I washed my hair.
It takes 3 weeks to form a habit. This is halfway there. After 3 weeks, you’re actively remembering to do something. You’re proud you formed a habit. Maybe a touch of New Habit Energy™. I posi...
Efficacy of an Atypical Circadian.
Sleeping in is way easier if it’s dark outside. My typical shift is 4am - 1pm. Most people would probably wake up just before the shift, right? 3ish? Maybe even redline to 3:45am? Their circa...
I'm a pedantic twat.
Or is it surly cunt. No, no. Former is an articulate followed by a self-deprecating term. Later is a negative term followed by a negative. And makes me sound potentially Australian. Oi, mate, y...
Ah, healthy natural sleep.
Ten hours of sleep. Half a benadryl, magnesium, no melatonin. Having two days a week to sleep in is underrated. Oh, I try to get sleep the rest of the week. I give myself 8 hours, and it ends ...
Feelings will pass, feelings will pass...
Ever feel like your own friend collective has conspired to quietly tolerate you, and secretly hopes you kill yourself? It’s the anxiety and passive depression, I tell myself. But, the popular na...
There, I posted this week.
One take on my potential NaNoWriMo is to split myself into three perspectives: Father, son, and the one in between. As it’s a TimmyNovel, they’d all be failures. HA HA. Like, I could write Wha...
Quality sleep and stuff.
Dude, I ate beans&rice before bed, and my weight is still lower than it was yesterday. THIS JS WILDSAUCE. I mean, I know the math. I’m in sharp enough of a deficit that a small portion of be...
More musings.
I think more people have blood sugar issues than they realize. It is not a subject I’m versed in, but my energy has definitely been consistently better since I’ve been consistently eating better...
Between MEV and MRV.
One of the more interesting things I learned in nutrition class years ago has to do with saturated fat. Viscerally, we know what saturated means and feels like. But chemically? What is saturate...
So, I posited a wild theory that my cut might have been making me hangery and have hangxiety, despite not really feeling hungry. Like, rather than manifesting hunger, I was feeling gently more a...
Protein Synthesis is Higher Day After Training.
I have cited this so many times to calm fledging bros. Little bros are addicted to the fallacy of the “anabolic window”. A perceived use-it-or-or-lose-it time where you should eat and down prot...
At least I get to eat cheese every day.
Not sure if I’m annoyed at a plethora of small things, or if my cut is catching up with me. Caffeine intake could be worse but uuuhhhh. That I feel more normal after eating. And I wake up kind ...
Definitely some ounces off the scale.
Spring shearing. I got lazy and grew the pubes out. Whatever. Growing more and more indifferent to shorn scrotum upkeep. But holy hell, I got a lotta bush. It’s getting warmer out, it’s near-...
I Shower Daily.
Just an annotation. I have had periods of depression where I wasn’t showering. I’m talking weeks, man. Things get unpleasant, trust me. I live in this meatbag, and it sucks. I have about three...
I love getting around to a proper sucking session.
I woke up early, and felt motivated to vacuum. I’ve meant to vacuum once a week, but who actually holds themselves to that. Nonetheless, with four cats, even a half-assed vacuum will pick up a ...
It's not intelligent.
You know how Windows and Mac is just a GUI over an infrastructure we used to interact with directly? So-called AI is nothing more than a search engine with a glossy output system. Whatever it’s...
Book Description
Off-hand thoughts which I won’t organize as well. But feel safe to share.
