Well, here we are again. Seems like every few years, I end up back here. That’s the fun thing about mental illnesses. You can treat them, notice them, even go into remission, but just like ca...

This morning when I went to let River out, I was met with a warm damp wash cloth around my body. It was so hot and muggy. Like break out the shorts, hot. Now? It’s windy and 38 out. What the he...

I slept well enough two nights ago with no breathing strips or anything, or at least as well as a 60-year-old can sleep. Due to there still being swelling and scarring in my nose that’s going to...

Same ol’ same ol’. Not much to report here. I’ve kinda stayed off instagram and the game I play online most of the morning and my mental state seems to be better for it. I haven’t turned on Netf...

I experience big ones and little ones. Today, I am aware of a particularly big one. I remember falling sleep to the somewhat troubling conundrum of my unconscious habits. Most poignantly sur...

We both said we stand at a crossroads. Shall we walk a while together?

3 years ago today we laid my brother to rest. It always sneaks up on me and just leaves me feeling… Anger? Grief? Rage? Sad? Whatever. Here’s some music that helps me when I’m upset and ca...

Wrote an entry earlier. Twas nonsense. Deleted it. Seven hundred days sober! 🧙‍♂️

I wonder if at any point in his career, someone told Ted DiBiase “hey, if you’re playing a bad guy, you should call yourself Ted Deviousi instead, that’s a good wrestling name”. At the r...

I suppose this is as good a place as any to write about this. Some of it is a rehash but.. rehash is my specialty, it would seem. Part of ruminating. Part of being obsessed with time travel. Par...

One of my favorite games as a kid because I was so good at it - hide and go seek. I’ve hidden so well before the other kids forgot I was playing and left. It’s true! I was so good at becoming p...

Except the entries that weren’t public in my OD export. The ASCII exports I have stashed away various places will have to suffice. So it goes.

If We Cared About Girls By Kate Manne If we cared about girls, trans girls would be cherished and affirmed and not policed, scapegoated, and bullied. If we cared about girls, we would not er...

Things have been better lately.  I have filled out 5 applications.  I had an interview at Lowe’s.  It should be good if my background information checks out and my drug test.  Since i don’t do d...

The lack of interesting ideas or solutions on this front is frustrating to me. So I would like to offer mine. I focus on two specific problems: the gulf in cost between renting and owning, and ...