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I Shower Daily.
Just an annotation. I have had periods of depression where I wasn’t showering. I’m talking weeks, man. Things get unpleasant, trust me. I live in this meatbag, and it sucks. I have about three...
I woke up early, and felt motivated to vacuum. I’ve meant to vacuum once a week, but who actually holds themselves to that. Nonetheless, with four cats, even a half-assed vacuum will pick up a ...
It's not intelligent.
You know how Windows and Mac is just a GUI over an infrastructure we used to interact with directly? So-called AI is nothing more than a search engine with a glossy output system. Whatever it’s...
Endogenous OCD.
I’m not sure if there’s another term for this. I’ve met people with some serious clinical OCDs. I have more… set tendencies. I’m consistent! We all find little ways that things work for us, a...
Portions & meals, not calories.
So, rest day from the gym. Skipped my oatmeal and went straight to my lb of ground meat. Today, ground chicken. With half a bag of spinach on top, of course. (Season, cover 15 minutes medium-...
BJJ.
Every time I see this shorthand. I mentally know it’s a shorthand for a form of martial parts. A form of exercise. But my brain sees BJ first. And thinks it’s some kind of athletic fellatio ...
Front Left Pocket.
That’s where my wallet goes these days. I’m not sure entirely when I started placing it there. I had it on a chain in my back right pocket for years. Retired the chain, stayed in the back right...
Seven Months Until NaNoWriMo.
When I’m not sketching The Next Routine, or jotting down periodization for lifts across rep ranges, I let my mind wander into NaNoWriMo brainstorming. It’s never too early to start. Every year I ...
In a month, it's gonna be
Took a job first shift. I’m assuming 4a-1p is first shift. Because I’m insane (and have no life), I get up around 11pm, so I can hit the gym around 12-2am. Pretty quiet that time of morning. E...
I am getting out of bed.
Not a declaration or mission statement. Just an annotation. I’ve had patches where I haven’t wanted to get out of bed at all. Whether exhaustion or just not wanting to face the day. My ridicul...
Lifting Wisdom.
If it’s easy on paper, prove it. If it feels difficult, practice until it becomes easier. No idea if this generalizes. It uh. Makes sense in my head.
Hey Blinkin.
So. I’m heading into my neighborhood Walmart. I seem to get the attention of some middle school boys. One asks “Excuse me, sir, are you Abe Lincoln?” Still walking, I smile and say, “Not today.” ...
Friends, Interrupted.
Watching Girl, Interrupted for the first time. When did that come out, 25 years ago? Fascinating how so many of my girl friends identified with that movie. It’s clear they didn’t mean it literall...
Show, don't tell.
When I was in third grade, I was sent to Mrs. Green’s room. I didn’t understand at the time. I had issues reading. Understanding. I don’t remember what we collectively were supposed to learn. I d...
Wish we could record dreams.
Interesting dream. One of my earlier ones, so there wasn’t much visual. There are times when you might think if you do nothing, nothing will happen. However, we’re like a piece of raw chicken in ...
Fences belong outside.
I never learned how to do 5th grade insults. I find them confusing and I never know how to reply. And it’s frustrating when I get upset and reply with anger, only to be told “you can’t get upse...
Diagnostic.
Having some time on my hands has lent itself to some self-reflection. For months, I’ve felt like all I was doing was lifting, eating, working, and sleeping. And not enjoying my days off at all....
Everybody has had a solution like this at least once.
So, for months now, the front end of Clarissa has been falling off. At some point a few months ago, I openned the hood to troubleshoot. See those holes I circled? There was a black washerplug...
Insomnia tends to give the most vivid dreams.
Gotta love a good dream sequence. It’s as if I’m laying in bed in my old childhood bedroom. I’m under the covers, pretending to sleep. I’m hearing my parents argue. My dad’s upset I left some ...
I am Timmy, son of Sandra.
What would Worf do? I softly joke that my three dad’s growing up were weird al, spock, and the Fonz. It’s...... I am Tim, son of… It never occurred to me previously. I am my mom’s son. I live to ...
Unscheduled Staff Meetings.
Slept in until noon. This isn’t anything special for a day off - I sleep in until noon even when I have workies. (What’s 2-12, second shift?) Punch line is I still wake up at dawn, around 6-7am...
Burning Sensation.
In theory, I like the rain. It’s calming. Yet all week, I’ve been kind of off. Emotionally flat. Sad, lonely, not getting much excitement from life. Or, just not okay being bored existing. Some p...
Educational Opportunity.
We’re supposed to hang out tomorrow so I can help her with her math GED. I’m excited and nervous, as it’s our first socialization outside of work. Excited, because duh, I get to spend time with ...
Sleeping Alone.
I miss cuddles.
The other Three C's.
So, I asked workcrush the very coded question of, “Is your husband threatened by me at all. Ya know, a guy being nice to you, buying you gifts.” She replies, “oh no, he adores you.” Well, you can...
Book Description
Off-hand thoughts which I won’t organize as well. But feel safe to share.
