It's all wrong in Walking away and into the New

This whole dating/guy friending thing…I’m doing it all wrong. It’s too fast.

Z fits nearly everything, but it didn’t feel right. I don’t know if he’s the person I could easily curl up with and fall asleep with…and hold his hand while walking in public…and come home to. Mandy loves his dominant side and INTJ qualities…but it hasn’t fallen into place in person. Text message is moving things along faster than I can emotionally keep up with.

I rather explore in person…find out they have a dominant side that way....feel drawn to be in his embrace…learn more though experience. This has been the opposite. He seems like a good person and I’ve acted as a spiritual mentor bringing insight to him and there are elements of T and Jesse with the conversations of dominance. Love his line of work and his passion…but it needs to fall into place. The cards like him.

But just stop…scenes and fantasies aren’t based IRL. At the end of the day, I’d be fine with my guy asking me to grab something over my head during intimacy and creating a life together, traveling together…all of that. It doesn’t need to be lifestyle based. I guess I’m figuring out what I want with Z. That’s not really fair to him though, is it?

Please be okay.
Love