What is okay? in The Napkin.

Age lines are evolving things. I’m glad that, as I get older, I have this block on younger women.

As it should be, to a degree.

Yet, with rounding. If I’m pushing 40, and someone was pushing 20 (downward), I could be 35 and she could be 25. Close enough to be my sister!

What IS the okay range to admire someone?

I’m at the range where I really check myself if she’s young enough to be my daughter. For real. I can’t wank to an 18 year olde. 25+, please.

For real. This isn’t funny. Women deserve to exist without the male gaze. And I always feel guilt if I ever contribute to it.

I’m fucking olde, and I have nothing to show for it. I feel like a failure and a loser. And that has nothing to do with the previous, except my age. 39 isn’t prime. It’s 13*3.

That said. It’s fascinating that I can now say “oh yeah? I could date your mom.”