36 Weeks, pics, life, death, house in My Metamorphosis

Ok this is literally my fifth time trying to sit down and actually finish this entry. I’m 36 weeks pregnant and feeling every bit of it. I still don’t understand people who actually like being pregnant. It’s just not for me, I don’t like the attention, I don’t like having a hard time getting up and down, sore back/feet/ankles - or should I say cankles because my legs are massively swollen most of the time. I’ve gotten over how I look physically, but how I feel is another story - constantly overtired, overworked, overwhelmed. Bradley does a great job with lessening my workload at home, but he works from 8-8 most days, so he’s stretched thin as it is. He’s really the best husband I could ask for. I just wish we had more time together.

I really don’t have a whole lot to report. My favorite uncle unexpectedly passed on July 21st. He is my cousin/BFF/ex-roomate (whom I’ve had a love/hate relationship with for sometime now), it’s her dad. And also my dad’s best friend and closest brother (they’re less than a year apart). It was very hard having my dad call me crying to tell me the news. Even harder seeing him at the funeral. It still doesn’t feel real. Cassidy and I drove the 6.5 hours to South Carolina to go to his funeral. It was nice seeing family - especially my immediate family. ALL of my brothers were there - my brother in Los Angeles and the one in Tampa flew in, and my brother who has been in Scotland for the past two years was there as well. It was the first time we were all together in over two years! So I enjoyed that. Minus being so uncomfortable, hot, and tired. Not to mention getting back into the groove of things when I got back from the trip.

Over the past three weeks I’ve had three baby showers! My church, my work, and my brother/SIL all threw me one. I can’t believe it, I seriously thought I wouldn’t have one. But I really appreciate everyone going through the trouble and now we have almost everything we need.

At the baby shower my brother Spencer in Tampa and his wife Autumn threw. On the left is my little brother Reid (my closest brother and the one that’s been in Scotland) and my big brother Spencer on the right.

Cassidy and my sweet 9 month old niece Savannah

The love of my life. Can you believe tomorrow is our four year wedding anniversary?! We have come SUCH a long way. I am so happy with where our relationship is now. I couldn’t ask for a better person to spend the rest of my life with. I love him so much!

The baby’s room is still a major work in progress. As is the rest of the house. We are def getting there though:

Cassidy started 7th grade last week. She has adjusted really well to her new school. Her attitude sucks right now. I guess it’s a little preview of the teen years to come. Good god she is really unpleasant to be around. I had enough of her smart mouth yesterday and went off on her. I really don’t know what to do. I talked to Bradley about it and suggested some father/daughter time because mother/daughter time is clearly not working. She’s not the worst, but the smart comments, eye rolling, etc is just being too frequent. I know its the age, but it still doesn’t make it right. And at 9 months pregnant I have an extremely short fuse and don’t feel like dealing with it! I think if Bradley were more present it would be better. I was always too afraid to act out in front of my dad.

I do love these two together:

Cassidy’s first day of school:

I took this at work last week I think, so this is probably 35 weeks:

Did I mention my mom didn’t come to not ONE of my baby showers? It kinda hurt my feelings, not gonna lie. She also has bought me one baby item. Not that I’m greedy and expecting her to buy me baby stuff, but I thought most grandma’s like doing that sort of stuff? I mean she hasn’t even come over to LOOK at the stuff I got, the nursery, or even my new house for that matter. And we live FIVE minutes from each other. If even that much. It’s disheartening. I don’t know why she doesn’t care. She’s preoccupied in her life, and that’s fine. I’m glad she’s not completely overbearing or anything, but I just thought she’d be more interested in her only daughter’s pregnancy and life.

In other news, Bradley met with his attorney about getting his record expunged on Tuesday. After 5+ years I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. Soon this will all be over and we can live our lives like normal people.

Ok anyway, the work day is almost over and I’ve droaned on long enough. I hope the next time I update I’ll be saying I’ve had the baby!