Coming to terms in My Metamorphosis

I’m slightly more stable since my last erratic entry. The idea of having a boy and a child isn’t sounding as horrendous as it did when I first found out a few weeks ago. I want to thank ya’ll for the non-judgemental and for all the kind notes that didn’t make me feel like a complete lunatic!

Since then I’ve tried to be more positive about it, I started re purposing the furniture I plan to use in the nursery:

We still have a lot of work to do because the guest room has pretty much became the overflow junk room o_O. But right now we’re pretty much at a standstill because we are in the process of hopefully buying a house. I submitted all of our stuff to a loan officer, I was approved. Bradley was not. Which wasn’t a major shock, but I need his income to be included or else all I’d be approved for is a one room shack based on my income alone. So anyways, the loan officer suggested asking my parents to co-sign. sigh I know my dad would say yes, but I feel bad asking. I shouldn’t have to depend on my parents at this point, but idk. I ‘m tired of paying $1100 a month in rent. AND I found my dream house! I found the perfect house for us, it’s four bedrooms, close to Cassidy’s school, beautiful neighborhood, huge-fenced in backyard, beautiful kitchen, it has it all. I want it so bad!

Isn’t she beautiful???

So I dropped the hint to my mom about Bradley not getting approved, so I’m hoping they will offer. If not, I guess we have no choice but to stay where we are and make the best of it.

Work is going great! I love my job with WIC! I have finally settled into my own office at my own clinic and it’s really going good. I’m also completely done with school and will be graduating magna cum laude on May 7th! Not that I’m going to the graduation or anything, one college graduation was enough for me.

This weekend we are going to a church retreat. I am super excited because last year I wanted to go but we couldn’t afford it - at the last minute a family backed out and so Cassidy and I got to go in their place but Bradley couldn’t get off work at the last minute, so it was just us. Then I ended up coming down with the worst random cold ever so the trip wasn’t much fun for me. Anyways, this year we were able to pay for it and book it in advance so Bradley gets to go with us! I’m so looking forward to the weekend getaway, it’s the closest thing to a vacation we’ve had in ages.

Speaking of Bradley, he is seriously the best husband and dad ever. We both work 8-5 but my new clinic is a bit farther away and getting up earlier is not an option right now for me! So he makes me and Cassidy breakfast, takes her to the bus stop, and has my lunch packed for me. He’s been such a big help I don’t know why I was so worried about having a baby and being left alone to tend to everything myself - he already does so much without me having to ask and without complaining - I know he will continue to do the same with baby Bradley gets here.

Speaking of baby Bradley - I am 20w2d pregnant! This pregnancy is seriously taking forever. It hasn’t been terrible by any means and I shouldn’t be complaining. Because other than severe fatigue and getting huge, I haven’t had any issues thus far. I’m seriously way bigger than I had wanted to get, but I’ve just come to accept it. I know how to lose weight, I’ve done it a million times, so I guess I’ll just embrace it while I have an excuse :P

Since I totally anticipated on having a girl, I only had girl names in mind. Now I have NO idea what to name him and we can’t agree on ANYTHING. So please, throw me all your suggestions. I’d prefer a “c” name but it doesn’t have to be.

Our FB reveal

Latest 20wk belly pic