January 19th and 20th in 2016

January 19th and 20th
Well, having worked through third period, and ALT’d a class for Inori Sensei, I went home. I was a wreck. I’d barely eaten dinner the night before, and I’d not been able to stomach breakfast on the 19th. My head was killing me, and everything was just a wreck. Also, knowing that today (the 20th) there’s a big evaluation . . . yeah. Decisions.
Anyway, I went to the normal hospital, and got some meds. I made myself eat some bread from Kazumi yesterday, it was a big, sweet, cake like, bread, but that was about all I managed. I felt sicker. I mostly lounged on the couch feeling like crap. I couldn’t focus on anything to distract myself, but I couldn’t really let myself sleep for fear of missing an appointment, or, getting too little sleep and waking up in a worse shape than I was in.
At around 4, I headed out to Eshin to meet with the teacher that I would team teach with today. I know I have one class team teaching with her. Beyond that, I have no idea as to what I’m going to be doing at Eshin. The lesson plan discussion was a bit dull, and rather simple, but that’s good. It’ll get a satisfactory rating.
Anyway, that over, I endeavored to stay awake until 9. Well, I managed it. And then some. Got to sleep way, WAY, too late. It was troublesome. Still, nothing to be done. Sadly, fitbit registered my sleep well before I was actually asleep, meaning my results for sleep study purposes are even more skewed.
Well, got up today, and felt awful because I’d barely slept, and the sleep I’d gotten was all on the floor. Not on a futon, mind you, straight up on the floor.
Well, it’s currently 12:25. I finished two classes, and lots of notebooks, for Matsumoto. I’ve got a demo at Eshin at . . . 1:50? Still haven’t gotten any paperwork on it and don’t really know what’s going on. I mean, a basic lesson plan was gone over, yeah. But I don’t know my actual schedule.
So, I haven’t eaten in twenty one hours. And the migraine keeps coming back in waves, though it’s greatly improved, and the day draws on and on. I’m going to skip school lunch today because I don’t think my stomach can handle it. How Japanese food, of all things, can be so heavy I don’t understand. But, that’s just life.
One thing I’m happy/proud of is that, even though I’ve been sick, I haven’t fallen into my normal trap (since Sunday) of eating and eating to try and make myself feel better. I realize now, finally, and hopefully for good, that whenever I do that I usually end up FAR sicker than I otherwise would have been had I simply just not eaten. Thankfully, nothing sounds good and the idea of food is repellant. Often when this hits, I make myself eat a bit and then it’s like blood in the water. So far so good this time. Let’s hope it sticks around.
It’s frigid here, thought yesterday I was cold out of all reason, which I think was partly the result of feeling so physically terrible. I’m not making much progress on my New Year’s resolutions, but, other than Sunday, I’m doing pretty okay at not making them any worse. I’m not studying right now because it’s counterproductive. I tried it. I’d eventually repeat the same things so many times that I was memorizing the sentence structure rather than the words in it. That’s not effective learning. I did manage to bang around on the guitar a bit yesterday, though, obviously, with a migraine prolonged exposure to loud sounds coming from your lap are inadvisable.
So . . . yeah. Hopefully things will look up when I get sleep and/or the weather makes up its mind.