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2016

by Xanatos

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December 01, 2016

This Point

I suppose that one of the reasons that I don’t write about suicide as often as I think about it is a fear of becoming tiresome or being another cliche. I’m tired of remembering those high school...


November 29, 2016

A very frank admission

The youngest I remember actively considering suicide, I was thirteen. It’s been an ever present thought since then. Hovering, at all times, just off to the side of my peripheral vision. Even a...


November 29, 2016

No Way Out

I remember, in China, when I was reading through the Sherlock Holmes stories in my own little red cased Kindle. I remember the return of Sherlock Holmes and how the whole adventure was contrived...


For the first time in nine years, for the first time I can remember, at least, the music turned off, and missed it.


I don’t remember if I got those classes that I wanted on the second. I also don’t remember anything about the third or 4th. Evidently I taught at an elementary school on the 3rd. Though, now t...


Yesterday, I had a very long and dull day at the BOE with nothing really worth talking about. At lunch, I popped into the barber’s. I was a bit embarrassed because I was there on their lunch, a...


I had two pleasant classes with Tateishi Sensei yesterday. I love teaching the first years. Unfortunately, due to Eikaiwa, I wasn’t able to teach the 6th period class. Eikaiwa was more than sl...


I had one class with Tateishi on the 27th. Beyond that, I rotted my eyes with a computer screen. I then went to the doctor, went to Kitchen Inoue, and went home. I watched a bit of Archer and ...


Nothing of interest happened on the 25th. As per expectation. I finished school (had no classes), then went to the doctor, then ate dinner, then vegged until I slept. Possibly there was grocer...


I was with Tateishis Sensei on Monday. I was supposed to have three classes, but, due to Eikaiwa, I could only do two. However, even these were shortened. They had more testing to do, so, I we...


I ended up going home on Friday. My voice was so bad that I was sent home. That and it was midterms. I think. At the very least, it was some big test. I went to the doctor, so that I could sa...


The remainder of the 18th went about as well as could be expected. Nothing of value to report that I can remember. The nineteenth saw me at Riusui. I love the kids there. I had a great time wi...


Yesterday I got through my two classes. I didn’t eat lunch (eating is still hard) and I mostly sat at my desk hating the world for being too busy to entertain me when I’m supposed to be working....


The seventh and eighth of October passed without anything that stands out at this point. Likely they were dull. I seem to remember not feeling very well and being maybe busy for some reason? S...


October 16, 2016

October 4-6 Painfully dull

The night of Tuesday the 4th passed without anything of interest. I went to the barber to try and get a shave, but I hadn’t made a reservation, and he was full. I waited for a while, reading al...


October 12, 2016

Sick

I have an entry somewhere or other that I meant to post. I’ll add it sometime soon. However, I’ve been floored with severe bronchitis for several days. 104 degrees is too many degrees.


October 04, 2016

30 Sept-4 Oct: Life Upgrades

The term references Chris-chan, whose life I’ve followed in WAY too much detail these days. After teaching one class with Inori Sensei, I felt so sick I immediately went to the doctor. The musc...


The 28th passed without anything of interest. Yamasaki was relatively fun. We had rain for recess, which made things more dull than normal. Which doesn’t mean much because usually Yamasaki rece...


September 27, 2016

Through the 28th

Today, the 28th, I am sitting at the BOE, waiting to go to Yamasaki Elementary. I have lunch, then two classes. I’ve got the 5th and 6th graders today. I wish they’d let me teach the little on...


I returned to Japan August 27th (I believe). I then went to bed. And slept the entirety of the 28th. Then went to work on the 29th. Work was, in reality, the BOE. No work was actually involv...


Beyond the funeral, things have been a bit mad as well. Nothing especially memorable seems to have happened on Friday the 16th, but I seem to remember that there was something. I taught at Eshin ...


September 19, 2016

Catching up Part 1: The Funeral

Enough has happened since the last entry that I think I’ll go in reverse chronological order for this one as far back as I can remember. Yesterday, the 19th, was the funeral for Hirata-Sensei, M...


September 12, 2016

Observations but no status

I hope to have the energy to catch up on all of my back time. Sadly, it will be shy on details. The minutiae I seek to preserve will be absent for late summer and early fall. That having been s...


August 05, 2016

So very sorry

Sorry for lack of entries. Life has been insanity. Sadly, I’ve forgotten a lot that has happened, but I’ll write about what I can soon. Hopefully I’ll have time to kill on the plane.


The night of the 12th was fine. I had tea ceremony and it went pretty well. I didn’t do as well as I expected in some areas, I did better in others. Little by little, I’m getting better, and t...


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