Long Overdue Update in My Metamorphosis

Geez, I didn’t realize it’s been so long since I’ve updated. So much has happened..

On my last entry I left off on the possibility of Zion moving. This turned into a major fiasco, all because Zion was being majorly deceitful to both us and his mom. Long story short, he was telling his mom one thing and telling us something different essentially pinning us against his mom. He was telling his mom how bad he wanted to move back to Atlanta with her but we were begging him to stay, and he was telling us how badly he wanted to stay here but didn’t want to hurt his mom’s feelings…

Turns out, none of that was true. When we talked to his mom it was a completely different story. After finally getting to the bottom of it, we all decided that it was best that Zion go back to Atlanta. Suddenly he changed his mind and wanted to stay here, but we knew it’d always be the back and forth and so he moved back last week.

And it has been the biggest relief. I’m sure that sounds bad but you guys just don’t understand. He was so shiesty, always lying. Even right before he moved he got caught in a big lie. He asked my mom if he could play on her kindle when we were over at her house. She said sure as long as you don’t download anything. Well the next day she sees she got an email saying “thank you for downloading Roadblocks…” But she didn’t see the app anywhere on her Kindle. So, not only did he deliberately disobey her and download the game, he tried to be sneaky and delete it after he was done. Then, when we confronted him about it, he totally denied it. What the f. I don’t know how many lectures we’ve given him on telling the truth because lying just makes the situation worse. If he had just admitted it it wouldn’t have been such a big deal, but as per usual he just denied it despite clear as day proof he downloaded it. He’s always doing shit like that. He will lie and not blink an eye, it’s actually scary.

But anyways, that’s their problem now.

Moving on…

The last day of school was May 22 (how early is that???) and my baby is officially an elementary school graduate. It makes me so sad. I can’t believe I’m about to have a middle schooler. I hope she has a better experience than I did, just thinking about my middle school/high school years gives me so much anxiety. Those were not good times. I was so lost and alone. Anyway, she was invited to a special awards ceremony for making straight A’s all year long:

She is so smart and sweet. She is going away to camp for a whole week in a few weeks. I am so nervous and excited for her.

Last Wednesday I finally had the LEEP procedure done to remove the potentially cancerous tissue. Ouch. It was not pleasant. My doctor said that it would hurt less than the colposcopy, but I’m pretty sure it was just as bad if not worse. They used a local anesthetic but getting that in itself was painful. Then you could hear and smell them burning off, which just makes you feel the pain. I was a little uncomfortable but the rest of the day, but I popped a hydrocodone and was fine after that.

In addition to the part of the cervix they removed, they took another tissue sample from the cervix and tissue from the uterus to send to pathology. I go back on June 12th, so I am seriously praying it all comes back normal. I didn’t know they were taking uterine tissue, but he said they needed to based off something found on previous tests. That freaked me out. I didn’t know there was ever an issue in my uterus and it really scares me. I don’t want to be infertile at 28 :(

My family, Bradley, and my best friend Samantha have been so supportive through all of this. I am so grateful for them. My cousin/supposed best friend Katie, on the other hand, is a bitch. I don’t know if I talked about her in my last entry. But ya know, last june I went to see her (in South Carolina) and she totally ignored me and I didn’t see her not one time. Somehow I was able to forgive her and I went up there in April to visit her again (my mom was going to her high school reunion and I tagged along) and I barely saw her. I was there from Friday to Monday and I saw her just a couple hours each night on Friday, Sat, and Sun. We were staying at her parents, literally a block away from her house. She is such a bitch. I came up there JUST to see her. I asked her NUMEROUS times, are you going to be available? Are you sure you want me to come? …

Well anyway, we hadn’t talked after I left until she text me on Mothers Day. She’s known about this whole health scare and I’ve talked about it numerous times to her. So her birthday was last week on the day of my surgery, despite my ill feelings toward her I texted her happy bday and then let her know I was about to go into surgery.. and she’s like “surgery for what..” Umm hello. Duh. I’m not unreasonable, I know people have busy lives and I don’t expect her to keep up with every appointment or anything like that, but shit. Come on. So I tell her, and she never responds. Not even a “good luck” or “thinking of you” nothing. I know this procedure wasn’t life or death or anything, but damn. You’re supposed to be my best friend and you obviously don’t give two short and curlys about me. I really need to cut her out of my life. We have literally been best friends since I was born but I keep trying to hold on to something that obviously isn’t there any more.

Other than that, life is good. I can’t really complain. Me and Bradley are happy. I have one week left before school starts again :(. I’m still waiting to see if my contract is renewed for my current job, which I really hope it is because I turned down that job I talked about last entry. I’ll try to update after I get my results back in a couple weeks!

Cassidy, my mom, and I went on a church retreat thing last weekend. It was at a really nice “camp” ground. Unfortunately, I got a random really bad cold and was unable to do much or enjoy anything:

Lol, I was literally sneezing when this pic was taken. Then spent the rest of the day in my bed at the camp :(

How beautiful is this girl?

Some of my random DIY projects:

And my sweet Callie on the front porch: