Life, Cervical Cancer, & other things in My Metamorphosis

I went to the obgyn a few weeks ago after the Women’s Health Medicaid was approved. We booked my pre-op and procedure date and I was supposed to be having it done tomorrow. But, apparently somebody dropped the ball somewhere along the line and it got terminated on April 1. It has been SO frustrating. I have been calling and calling and trying to get this squared away, but no one likes to answer their phone. On Thursday I sat on hold for literally I shit you not, four hours before I finally hung up! It’s redonk. I really want to get this over with so I can move on with my life.

Before my insurance got canceled I was able to go to the dentist for a check up for the first time in like literally ten years. Not even joking, ten years. I have been wanting to go because my brother (who is 32) has advanced gum disease and it runs in our family apparently. So I’ve been paranoid. But no gum disease, or cavities, so that’s good.

In other news, the kids’ Spring Break was last week. Zion went up to Atlanta with his family. OMG. I can’t tell you how nice it was without him here. Stress free. Problem free. I feel bad, but he’s such a handful and so needy and always getting into something. If he was a toddler, that’d be one thing. But at ten 1/2 years old, I would think I could leave him unattended for two seconds without worrying about the house getting burned down..

Anyways, when his mom came to drop him off she said the she wants Zion to move back with them and he wants to go back too. Okay. Well that would be a relief for me, but I really don’t think it’s in his best interest. But who am I. He was sent down here for a purpose and because he wanted to come. I think his problem is he thinks the grass is greener. Back when he would come here for breaks and the summer he never wanted to go back to his Mom’s and cried and would say he wanted to be with us. And now that we’re the ones with full custody, when he goes on vacation with his mom he wants to stay there. Of course he does. Here he was rules, structure, chores, discipline. When he visits his mom it’s a vacation full of fun things and no work. Just like it was when he lived with her and visited us. He can’t dissociate reality vs vacation. So his mom is like “let’s just have him decide”.. okay. He’s ten. And a very immature ten at that. He is not equipped to make the best decision. He’s going to make the decision that involves living in the place where he thinks its more fun and less work. Then he’ll move there and realize, spring break at mom’s is different from living at moms.

Nothing has been carved in stone yet. But we need to solidify what the plan is. School will be out next month so we need to start planning accordingly. Zion and his mom both think he’s going to be staying here for the summer. Um no. He moved here last year at the beginning of summer. If he wants out of here that bad, then why would he stay here for the summer? The original plan was for her to get him for the summer anyway.

I feel like she’s just trying to take advantage of us. Before there was anything about him moving, she was already trying to weasel her way out of having him for the whole summer. When we used to get him for the summers, we had him the whole time. We had to worry about providing day camp and stuff like that. Now it’s her turn.

Anyways I randomly interviewed for a job today. I have been passively searching for new jobs because I don’t know for sure if my contract will be renewed or not. My contract runs out in June, so I need something just in case. This is a part time job working in the infectious disease department with Public Health. I’ve been trying to get in with Public Health for some time now because I’d really like to work there when I become a Registered Dietitian. The pay sucks, but I’m trying to think long term.

So I went into the interview only half caring. I didn’t really know what the job entailed and the shitty pay made it less enticing. But once they told me more about it, I was really interested. I’d be teaching HIV prevention and health education classes, doing HIV/ Std counseling, testing, etc. In my current job, I do basically the same thing except on developmental disabilities. They were mega impressed, especially when they found out I’m about to become an RD. I really nailed the interview and I would be surprised if they don’t offer me the job. I’m really over qualified, but like I said, it’s a foot in the door. Although the pay is subpar, a steady paycheck will be nice. My current employer takes for ever to pay me (I submit an invoice and they pay me based off that). I intend on doing both jobs as long as I can. I hope it’s not going to be too much with school and all. But we need the extra money and I need the experience.

Speaking of school, the semester is winding down. Thank God. I only have two more semesters of dietetics classes. I’ll be done in December, and then will have one semester of dumb classes I have to do to complete the degree (like marketing, why marketing i dont know).

So when I was feeling really down about the CIN - III cervical diagnosis thing, my little brother was like “you need a hobby..” Im like I have no hobbies :( But then remembered how much I like DIY stuff. I love our house and we have a huge ginormous backyard, with an ugly little concrete slab. So I decided to revamp it:

The before and after.. I hand painted the “tile” myself. Well, Cassidy helped a little. I have been on the hunt for some patio furniture I like, but it is so dang expensive. Hopefully when I update next time, I will have it completed.

Here’s some Easter pics from FB:

Random IG pic. I have been working really hard trying to get “bikini” ready. There is stubborn fat I cannot seem to get rid of. It is so annoying. I wish I was rich, I would so get lipo and a boob lift/reduction asap.