In my last entry I seriously was ready to pack up and leave my husband and never look back. Of course I was super pissed/emotional at the moment. And rightfully so. I think part of the reason I was so upset was because I was on "vacation" and I didn't want to come back home to reality.. aka living with my mom and still not being able to live together and what not. Just a lot of overall frustration that hit the roof. And I guess I wanted to be able to do whatever I wanted to do and not have to answer to anyone. Sometimes it's hard to remember that even though our circumstances are unconventional, we are still married and I have to at least be courteous and inform him of my whereabouts. And I don't mean ask for permission.
Anyways with that being said, the judge signed the order last Friday.
Ya know, the order that says we can finally move in together, all of us, including Cassidy, and get legally married and be normal people. I haven't had a chance to bask in this major feat because we have both been hella busy. Two weekends ago me, my mom, and Cassidy drove all the way to my hometown in South Carolina bc my mom had a wedding to go to. I was going there to see my long lost cousin, Katie. The one who I lived with briefly in Charleston. The one who royally screwed me over and I didn't talk to for two years. Yeah, that one. Anyway, we have been trying to rebuild on relationship over the past year and have been ok. When my mom asked if I wanted to tagalog with her I was excited to go see my cousin whom I haven't seen in three years. Well, long story short we were there for five days and I never saw my cousin. Why? i don't really know, other than the fact she's a selfish bitch. I asked her numerous times before I came up there if she was going to be available, if she was sure she wanted me to come, etc. She said yes. Then decides to blow me off the whole time. Like literally no text, no call, no nothing. She randomly text me a couple days ago saying "things aren't what they seem." I was like "oh? So you're not an inconsiderate selfish bitch?" Anyways I told Bradley if I ever try to patch things up with her to hit me upside the head so I wouldn't go down that road again.
Anyways, so since I was there for five days with NO wifi, I got super behind in work and school. So I was playing catch up that next week. Then had to go down to Tampa for my nephews 3rd b-day party. We had a really good time there. I was on my way down there when Bradley called (he didn't go) and told me that the judge signed the order and when we got back we could move in.
So after being in Tampa for a long weekend I've just been playing catch up ever since. Between work, school, and trying to move I'm going crazy. Not to mention I caught some random cold that has my ass dragging AND the AC has gone out in Bradley, or should I say,"our" house. Really? Now? Now that I'm moving in and in the middle of summer in the south Georgia, are you fucking kidding me?? This random guy has been "working" on it for like three days now and it's still not working. Anyways, I have a LOT more stuff then I thought and I'm not even halfway moved in yet. But I have the basics i.e. clothes and make up lol. But it's mostly all the stuff I've accumulated over the years that I need to sift threw and get rid off. Which I have a hard time doing, I like to hold on to stuff forever, even if it's just sitting in a plastic bin collecting dust. But for the most part, we're moved in and ready to go. It's been a pretty smooth transition for Cassidy too, which is good. I am loving being here in my own home doing my own thing with out having my mom all up in my business and hovering over me.
I don't remember if I wrote about this, but I got a random ass child support check for $8000.
Really? Are you shitting me? $8000??? Wow. I was not expecting that. It came at the perfect time too because I was freaking out about how I was going to pay for school this semester. I'm sure my baby daddy was super pissed when he found out the IRS was taking his tax return. Oh well. I knew it would all catch up to his shady ass eventually. Ten years with out ever paying child support and now the government is FINALLY doing something about it. I got his tax return last year too. He is probably almost caught up by now. Which isn't hard considering he only has to pay $250 a month. Which is a joke. That doest cover shit, but I've never relied or depended on it because he's NEVER paid. Whatever, and it's not even "his money" anyway. He just got so much back because he has 50,000 kids and gets to claim EIC. So it's not like he even had to work for it. Whatever, money is money I guess. I shouldn't be bitching, I'm lucky to finally be getting anything from that loser.
We are getting Bradleys son, Zion, next week. Full custody that is. I am a little apprehensive about it. Not that he's a problem or anything, but I am already having a hard time balancing it all, adding another kid into the mix scares me. So we get him on Thursday and then on Friday we're going down to Tampa, our new family that is, and going to spend the weekend there and go to Busch Gardens for Cassidy's birthday/family togetherness thing. I am looking forward to that. Her 10th b-day isn't until the 8th of July, but I didn't want to go down there during the 4th of July weekend, so we're going the week before. None of them have ever been to Busch before, so I am really excited about it.
This entry is all over the place, and really boring. I apologize. Here's some pictures. Most of them are IG or FB reposts, so if you've already seen them...sorry!
This is my sweet baby Cassidy sitting in the exact same spot on my Uncle Joe's back porch. I think she was two in the first pic and almost 10 in the right pic.
Cassidy had to have a pic in front of the tree "with the face"
This is a pic I took from the wedding we went to. We weren't even supposed to go to this wedding, but we were so bored after my cousin ditched us that we went with my mom.
Me and my second oldest brother, Spencer.
We found this random peach orchard not too far from here that has banging homemade peach ice cream. It was so good. Can't wait to go back!
Me and Cass
Yesterday in my mom's pool. I finally got a bathing suit that holds up my boobs. Victoria Secret finally makes them in cup sizes, so I got one (in a 34DD mind you) and it actually holds them up and covers them up. Have I mentioned how much I hate my boobs???
And of course some weight loss pics. I have been totally slacking lately. With all the going out of town I've been eating like shit and not going to the gym. This coming week I am gonna get back on the grind though. I feel frumpy right now :(
I took this yesterday.. I think it was just the lighting that made me look decent but I'll take it lol
I went shopping while in Tampa and found this Guns N Roses shirt from Forever 21. I dyed. I wish I had all my old OD entries on here because I became obsessed with GNR when I was 14 and woulda killed for this shirt back then. Too bad it wasn't cool then, now you see this everywhere. Da f. GNR is still my favorite band and I'm happy to finally have their shirt.
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