Red-lining. in The Napkin.

So, 20 workouts in 23 days, plus one cardio? Or something. Tired? Kinda. Well, yes.

It’s that early-morning calm. Physically, I feel fine. Well, I was getting tired towards the end of my workout, but. Just normal daily stuff is no biggie. And physically, no injuries. Must be stated - I do make notes if anything feels “off”.

An early morning calm that sustains. Too… not too tired to care. As if I proverbially took my anxiety and wore it out. I could nap until worktime and be okay mentally. (Nah, I already napped.)

Exercise DOES help with depression.

I just need to make sure I don’t push myself too far. Sleep is good. Hunger is still there. Alertness is fine. General daily hedonistic desires are there (cookies, wanking, etc). Hey, I’m a simple person, every easy to please.

Sometimes when I think about dating, I think about how I’d be giving up my current calm. My current… routine? I like routine. I don’t think I’ve had this routine long enough to rock the boat.

I’m writing a novel in November. I’ll be good through Thanksgiving. It’s December that I’m worried about.

But, that’s future Timmy’s problem.

I don’t seem to date/find girls when I actively look. They find me. Just need to keep myself findable, and we’ll see. Cuz gosh, I really miss cuddling. And with the highs only around 90 degrees, there’s a small chance there may be cuddle weather this year.

May you find peace.