Thank you all for your comments on my last entry. I pretty much wrote it right as the whole incident with Cassidy was happening so my emotions were raw. After I calmed down, Bradley and I had a long chat with her. Trying to figure out why she thought it was ok to watch that garbage. I guess my biggest issue was feeling so disappointed and like a failure as a parent. I know that might seem semi extreme, but I've tried so hard to be a good mom and raise her right, so it was extremely disappointing to feel that betrayal and deceit from her. I guess this is just a glimpse into the teenage years to come. She hasn't been allowed back on her 3DS or any electronic except for the TV. I'm not sure when she'll get the 3DS back, but when she does I'm going to disable the wifi feature. And whenever she's allowed back on the computer it will be monitored and controlled. I should've done that in the first place, but I put too much faith into her that she'd do the "right" thing.
I was tucking her in bed tonight when for some reason I got this gut feeling to check for bed bugs. We had several episodes with them over the past almost two years probably. The last time, we finally had them professionally exterminated so we thought we were in the clear. That was a while ago, like maybe 8 months or so. I had noticed that Cassidy had a few bites on her legs, but at first chalked it up to the mosquitos that take over South Georgia once it gets warm. Anyways, I saw the bed bugs and the signs they've been there (i.e. their poop and shell casings). I just wanted to cry. What do I have to do to get rid of these fuckers? We live in a nice, clean house. Why do they keep coming back? It's so depressing. So she's sleeping with me tonight and we'll call the exterminator again tomorrow.
Things with Bradley have been really good. He hasn't brought up the whole Zion thing since I wrote about it last. But we have our bimonthly session tomorrow, so maybe he'll bring it up then. But otherwise, we've been happy. Still counting down the days until we can finally be one. Which could be soon, but I don't want to say anything and jinx it. I've been saying it's going to happen soon for nearly two years now, so until it's carved in stone, I'm not going to keep giving myself false hope.
I've been having a lot of migraines lately. And obamacare sucks so it's never going to get resolved cause I'm sick of paying for insurance and then having to pay completely out of pocket. I had a terrible migraine last week and took one fiorcet and one loratab and ending up puking my guts out all night long. Dumbass. I should've known better, but one wasn't working, so then I took the other, and then I spent my night in the bathroom. And it was one of the few nights I spend at Bradley's. I felt bad our night was wasted with me clinging to the toilet. God that was the worst though.
Easter was good despite it being super cold and rainy. Here's a few pics from FB:
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