Timmy™ ⋅ 41 ⋅
My name is Timmy™, formerly authorcode C104458 on OD. (Successor to A624512) Jersey born and raised, currently living in an OK state. I like cheese, feminism, bad puns, pegging, and Star Trek. Some entries are filtered. Don't be shy. I only bite if we have a safeword in place.
How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer.
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Empty Dreams. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
You're supposed to spend your twenties figuring out who you are and what you want out of life. How to present yourself accurately and how to make yourself happy. Almost 6 months into my 30's, a...
Try and relax. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
Don't know whether it's the weather or the depression or inconsistent sleep or the drinking but I've been so tired and demotivated all year. Yet when I think back to the years before I met Candi...
Sadz. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
I just kind of woke up sad today. I got 8 hours of sleep last night, but when my alarm went off, ugh, I just wasn't in the mood. Though, part of why I made sure to go to bed early is because I ...
Dicks in Pussies. in The Napkin.
I don't understand the female compulsion for sex. Or, rather, the female need for dick to be sexually satisfied. Over the years, I've heard a number of females state, "Oh, I don't masturbate. ...
Like visiting a dead relative. in The Napkin.
So, I'm vodkaed and out of habit went to opendiary.com, completely forgetting stuff. And then remembered. And had a moment, just a moment, of sad. Ew.
Still <3 snow. in The Napkin.
My shovel broke. It was a good plastic shovel. Cuz dude, metal is heavy, even if it's sturdy. Still not mad at winter, man. Was going to go sledding but it's since turned to freezing rain. F...
Subjective Reality. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
On the one hand, I still believe, to some degree, that we choose our reality. That we choose the perspective for which we see the world. We can choose to focus on different facets, whether they...
Yay, snow! in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
I must be one of the few people left who actually enjoys snow. Just about every last person I run into is straight-up bitching left and right about it. I get it, but my perspective is entirely ...
No Pride. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
I wonder if it's because of my desire to be "that person" for people. Or maybe feeling like I'm such an undesirable person to begin with that if I have any flaws, any mistakes, anything someone ...
Momentum. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
I was talking to Erik recently about my depression. He said one thing he used to do was remind himself in the morning that not being happy does not mean being depressed. For now, the wave of da...
Identity. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
If I have any sense of identity, it's one of an outcast, one rejected, one alone. Not normal, not understood. I have always felt this way. Always. And that is why I yearn for brief moments of gen...
BIGGAYTHOUGHTS. in The Napkin.
I have a bunch of scenes in my head that I want to do for my next grand BIGGAYDAN nanonovel. Absolutely need to visit a fudge factory for absolutely no reason. Certain characters to introduce b...
The Final Countdown. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
Somehow seems more real than a simple screenshot. 4594 entries. 43561 notes. Gone. All gone. Perhaps there is no solid ground to fall back on, only things that stay with us for a time, only...
Snow Day. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
I love cuddling. All those years I spent feeling like something was missing in my life, maybe, just maybe, I needed cuddles. Ha ha, good thing I wasn't into vodka then, even if I used to keep v...
My Internet Best Friend. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
I find it fascinating what a small community this is. Despite the fact that there are still plenty of people I don't know, and I would assume don't know me either, there's still this common heri...
Okay. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
Speaking of vodka, I made it a week without drinking for the first time in.. well, frankly, I can't remember. Two things have made the difference. One, marking on my calendar when I'm drinking...
Farewell, Bang Bang Bruce. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
It's like learning a dying family member is about to pass away, and trying only to remember the good times. I actually tried to write this on OD, but predictably, the site timed out. So, much l...
Keep running. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
Hung out with Caty tonight. I wasn't even nervous, it was more morbid curiosity how hanging out with her would go. I met her through Elissa, which means, if these hang-outs continue, I will hav...
Pictorial Extras. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
So in the process of organizing my yearly pictorial, I had a fuck-ton of pictures that were up for consideration, but did not make the final cut. And the vast majority of these I've never posted...
TimmyYear In Review 2013. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
January 2, 2013 Kira and T`Pol on my lap. January 23, 2013 February 4, 2013 First days in our new apartment. February 11, 2013 February 20, 2013 March 1, 2013 ...
I feel pretty. in Whey and Sonic Screwdrivers.
Sleep. in The Napkin.
But seriously, I think I'd be a lot more content if i remembered to get more sleep on a regular basis. Sleep, exercise, and regular masturbation. And maybe blocks of cheese. Blocks of cheese m...
Non-sequitor. in The Napkin.
Mostly for me, this isn't important. Things to do today: Eat breakfast. Head to the gym. Pay rent. Get oil changed. Sell books. If time permits: Clean bathroom. Take out trash. Masturbate furio...
A clean flat is a happy flat. in The Napkin.
I did some cleaning yesterday. Like. Seven hours straight of cleaning. I feel like a LOT of my anxiety has been lifted. I swear, I knew part of the reason I've been so off is because of all t...
Yo, Gurt. in The Napkin.
And then I think "Oh, I'll just eat less to save money." And then I realize, "Holy crap, I'm hungry." It was a joke when I was a kid/teenager. I'd just go all day without eating, it would be o...
