Pissed off. in The day to day

What a couple of days it has been. Husband went to work Friday morning and hasn’t been home since. I knew he was going to spend the night with the person he’s seeing. But he stayed last night with her as well.

I got on his computer and his home page is his email. I saw an email from ihatestevensinger.com. He had placed an order from there for his new woman. A rose dipped in gold with a note that says finally a flower that won’t be thrown away. He got me the exact same rose a few years ago. I really, really, really want to message her in a few days with a picture of mine and ask her if she likes her copycat gift.

He was supposed to come home yesterday but messaged me after while and said he wouldn’t be home for dinner and was figuring out the rest of the night. I told him I needed to know whether I was giving him money towards the mortgage this month since I didn’t know when he was moving into an apartment. He had been out looking at apartments earlier. He then proceeded to say that papers for an apartment would be submitted Monday and then we’ll move in in a couple of weeks. I said “We’ll?” He then tells me that she is moving in with him.

I. Went. Off. We had just had this conversation on Sunday when he came home. That she had wanted to make sure she liked the apartments he was looking at and I asked if she thought she was moving in with him. He said he was going to have to talk to her and tell her she couldn’t move in right now. Skip to last night and they are now moving in together?!

I told him it would be really hard for him to have the kids if she was there. He proceeded to say he would just tell them they are friends and keep PDA away while they are there. I am trying to get through his thick skull that this isn’t about him and her, this is about the kids and their well being. I am trying to make sure we don’t completely screw them up. He is being so god damn selfish. I told him I didn’t give a fuck if he kept seeing her but that the kids needed time to adjust.

I feel like when he’s here, he listens better and feels a little remorse and guilt. Then he goes with her and she manipulates him into doing whatever she wants. She’s been a stay at home mom, she’s getting a divorce from an abusive husband and right now is living with her dad. I think she’s hooking herself into the first thing that comes her way. And he’s falling for it. Being such an idiot.

I know now that the best thing I can do is get a lawyer hired ASAP and get this ball rolling. He is obviously not going to put the kids first in this. So I am going to have to make sure their well being is taken care of. I wasn’t able to sleep very well last night because of all the anger. And once I saw the picture posted on his Facebook too, I really got mad. I am ready for all this to be over. I need him out and I need it to be ASAP.