Don't Beat Yourself Up in Hello

I was off Friday night so I stayed up all day, got a new bag of weed (really good stuff), watched a bunch of YouTube vids with my man’s gf then went home and actually clocked in seven straight hours of gaming. Yeah I know I’m lazy. XD

Saturday I woke up roughly at 4:30 AM. Gamed, watched the first part of the last season of Bojack Horseman on Netflix, gamed more then went and got groceries. I had already started thinking about drinking before dinner. Lo and behold after getting home from Kroger I did go get vodka. I stayed up further drinking and gaming. When I woke up Sunday afternoon I was depressed and mad at myself. It’s not that I needed a distraction. It was well past 10 PM, I was super tired from being up all day but in my mind I didn’t just want to go to bed early only to wake up and have work that night. Weird logic, I know, but I kinda wanted to enjoy my weekend with booze.

The second shift supervisor told me that the next two quarters are backed up on orders so we’ll be doing six day weeks for a while. I guess I wanted to close out my last two days off consecutively with a bang. I dunno, I’m obviously trying to justify this. In the end I’m trying not to beat myself up over this. One day at a time.

I so did not want to come in tonight…

Last updated January 06, 2020