Emi pt 2 in ❅journal 2019❅

I told Celtic about Emi and she was horrified. She told me that I’m not his toy, that I shouldn’t offer my body to him when he’s upset. It made me feel so bad telling her because I said I wouldn’t tell anyone but I did and that I’m breaking his trust. It made her so disgusted and upset so she went offline and told me to always come to her about this.

The “I die you die” comment made her even madder and she said our friendships toxic. I get it but I do love Emi, he’s been so nice to me. And I talk to him today about it. His answer to the “I die you die” thing is that it’s still active and basically just don’t die then he won’t. That scares me, I didn’t tell him I told Celtic like I originally planned to. I know it won’t turn out well. He said he sees me as his best friend but is open to something else. He asked me if his answer was okay, I said yes because it was least alarming thing I thought he could say.

My head hurts from all this…