..... in ❅journal 2019❅

I didn’t get to talk to daddy at all yesterday and it’s all my fault. I think I scared him away.

I had this stupid idea… really stupid idea. I talked to Celtic about it and she told me be careful and ask first.

I wanted like him to cut me. With a knife. And put words. because I thought it’d be nice I was thinking about for a while.

I didn’t even think…I just asked…

And he thought I cut because I’m so stupid no and we talked a bit but he seemed upset still and now he hasn’t said anything he never responded to my last message

It’s all my fault. I shouldn’t have asked. Because…I wanted more than that…but nobody ever says yes in the end…not even daddy....

I’m gross…