Letting someone read the diary in ❅journal 2019❅

“Wow.”

This is what my boyfriend said after reading this diary. I decided to allow someone in my personal life read and find out everything. I was extremely nervous, like I shaking when i sent the link.

I honestly didn’t think everything was that bad, but then again I stopped writing in here for a reason. It was such a cycle, loneliness, new partner, overwhelmingly happy entries, depressed suicidal entries, “I need more attention” entries and then it’d start all over. I was ashamed of this whole thing.

That’s why I didn’t write anything about my relationship with Will which i regret heavily. I wanna look back on this when I’m an adult, I’ve seen many people with online diaries dating back to the early 2010s-2000s. Imagine reading about your life back then to now.

In a decade I hope I have a well paying job and have therapy. Though I doubt that heavily, but i know I want to start making money some way soon. Commissions hopefully…

Either way, it fekt kinda reliving to have somebody read this thing who i talk to semi daily. He recommended I write weekly atleast and still reads my entries. It helps with communication to.