The Heart Knows The Score in Current Events

Put your hands on your chest and over your heart. Visualize the kind of person that you want to be. Ask your heart what beliefs you have that are in the way of becoming that person. Your heart will know the answer. Now thank those beliefs for serving you in the past and let them go.

I was struggling to fall asleep last night and so I decided to do a guided meditation. When I heard the words that I posted above I began to cry. I didn’t think that I was experiencing any emotions at that time but tears started rolling down my face anyway. I guess the heart really does know the score. I have a lot of beliefs that I need to retire. Almost everything needs to go. I keep writing about this spiritual journey that I am on but then I keep going back and setting most of it to private. It feels very personal. Mostly I just want to get it right.

Last night I started a Netflix series called Dirk Gentley the Holistic Detective. It’s so cute. It satires the New Age “beliefs” that we’re all source energy, souls, that are here on earth to have a temporary human experience. That the universe will serve you if you learn to speak its language of vibration and frequency and don’t ignore the signs. The detective doesn’t follow traditional evidence but rather follows coincidences and synchronicities. The bad guys appear to be individuals that are fully enlightened and can remember their past lives and spoiler alert, they can jump bodies and change reality.

All year I have been saying that I have been seeing signs and then things would happen. Coincidences and synchronicities. Something would happen just when I needed change. The world around me would mirror my thoughts. I never read into it until recently. Now I’m paying attention to it all.

I developed an ability to observe my thoughts and emotions now instead of just experiencing them. I don’t agree to that belief anymore, let’s think about something better. This is not a pleasant experience let’s experience something else. I don’t belong to that anymore, let’s move along. The past is not happening, let’s stop experiencing it. The future is not written, let’s be excited about the infinite potentials you could create for yourself. It isn’t perfect and I have yet to put it all to the test it’s just… kind of sad? I am going to sound even weirder saying this but now that I can actually see that I am not my body and that I am not even my mind and so I don’t know how things will ever be the same again. It feels like I am leaving a lot behind. I have a lot to let go of still but it was everything that I knew. I sound so existential, I know but I don’t know how to explain it. How do you explain that you are no longer experiencing this 3D reality that we all co-created?

Todays Affirmations
- I will not belong to the old beliefs that held me back.
- I will stop wanting the life that I want and just be the person who already has it.
- I will not agree to fear I will agree to faith instead.
- Life is happening for me.

Last updated November 18, 2019