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It’s absolutely criminal the way I am abusing Prosebox in the last 24 hours.

I left a voicemail with that lawyer. If he does not return my call Leanne will go talk to his assistant. I called my doctor’s office and learned that my Doctor had actually retired. That’s awkward, I did know that was coming but I forgot. Maybe nobody even looked at the results of my bloodwork for my thyroid? The clinic I go to is specifically for gay men so I don’t want to shop around for a new family doctor so I am meeting a new one on November 7th. I could get another bloodwork order from a walk-in clinic, the results would be readily available for this new doctor. Maybe the walk-in will have the results from the last one? I think I might do that.

By the end of the day, I can feel my scalp throbbing (doesn’t hurt) and that would definitely be from the self-diagnosed TE alopecia that I have. It’s an autoimmune response from the high cortisol levels that are caused by my high levels of stress, which is affecting my thyroid and my body might be attacking my thyroid for overwhelming my system also so… that stresses me out even more and just adds fuel to the fire and I’m just in this perpetual loop of freaked out. I want back my anti-anxiety medication. What if they try and prescribe me marijuana? I like the organic, herbal situation of it all but I fucking hate being high… but my meds just render me stoned when I take them so fuck it. I’m not smoking it though.

I slept in today because I was depressed. I pulled it together and made those phone calls which empowered me enough to look at job postings online. We have a TV network in my city for first nations people and I’m looking into any job opportunities there because why the fuck not? I’m pretty confident that one of my seven entries tomorrow will be saying that I finally applied for jobs. So yuh, I forgot to vote yesterday because I spent all day writing down my story that was meant to be sent to my old company but will now likely be sent to my future lawyer instead… anyways! Trudeau is Queen of the north again so that is perfect.
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K I’m having a full anxiety attack. Too much coffee maybe? I’m eating my breakfast and then I am going to a walk-in. I started to notice a throbbing under my jaw and BAM! I psyched myself out that my thyroid is self-destructing. I can also tell that my body is a hostile place right now, acidic because I stunk. I am NOT a smelly person. I smell like citrus… except for the last few days. K! Breakfast! Alkaline water! and then off to a walk-in.