Imaginary difficulties are unconquerable in Current Events

I met up with Erin and Hetal today for coffee. I am so relieved that Erin found work. She just started at a grocery store and she was actually trained by Richard, one of my old restaurant managers. He was a piece of shit and I actually thought that I got him fired when Larry asked me how Richard ran a store, I was brutally honest. I spilled the T and nothing but the T so help me gay god. #gaymen. Richard said something intriguing about Larry to Erin when he heard that Larry is now working at the restaurant next to Richard’s new workplace. “They’re letting a fucking pedophile work there?” Then it fucking clicked. Richard must have had an honest bone in his body after all when he was asked about the allegations against Larry. He probably confirmed some of the information that I had brought to head office. We’ve all been let go since then. Richard was Larry’s right hand man and if anyone knew of any indiscretions it would have been him. The indiscretions being that this Operations Manager is a fucking predator. We had one girl that he was having a marital affair with and another one that came forward that used to work for him. She is all grown up now and feels that she was taken advantage of. He asked for nudes of her and he would show all his buddies that worked at other locations them and told them about how obsessed she was with him. Painted her out to be a stalker but she felt coerced. I could not get it confirmed but another source told me that she was underage when it started. Richard must have known this. Anyways, the franchise that I used to work for failed to protect their employees. I was told that they have too much invested in him so they will just transfer him to another location. I’m old fashion, I believe that if you stand between somebody and their career progression then that person is vulnerable. Just keep your hands off of your employees. Larry has a wife and kids ffs. I’m tempted to reach out to Richard to see if he wants to help me make a stink on the news. He might be bitter toward me though. Also, I just need to let it go already.

So yes, Hetal is back from India. She managed to get married out there without telling her family. She was going to but then they arranged a wife for her brother and they told her that she was next and she told them that she will marry somebody of her own choice and then they all argued and she just did not know how to bring it up after that. They will cut her off financially and she is dependant on them for the time being. She is applying for pharmacy jobs as soon as she manages to fix her jetlag. Once she gets a job I will feel so much better because everybody who was fired because of me (for reporting predatory behaviour) will have moved on. Maybe I will be able to do so as well?

So Hetal also stole some debris from the temple in Dwarka for me and some stones from the shore next to it and I’m pretty hyped about it. I told her that my plan was to return it because I’m not Britain (they built their country by stealing from India). She told me that I don’t stand a chance on getting into that temple. It’s for Hindus only. There is a lot of security there, they even guard the shore because there is an ancient 30 000-year-old city in that sea which nobody is allowed to disturb. Artifacts wash up all of the time. The lost city of Krishna. That would trump the lost city of Atlantis by a lightyear. She also went to bring me a big idol of Ganesha but her mother made her return it because it is not okay to gift somebody an idol of Ganesha that is not made from pure silver. Her mother likes me and wants to make sure that I get good fortune and blessings. The idol does not photograph well but I love it. I’m too minimalist to hang on to things but I am going to keep these. Ganesha is the god of beginnings. The remover and placer of obstacles, Hari Om. Also, he is super cute with that elephant head.

After all of that bitching and moaning in my previous entry, I managed to wake up at 5 this morning. Before my alarm even went off. I drank my coffee and started reading Rising Strong by Brene Brown. Bev leant me it. Yesterday I jotted my Boss Up mission down on paper and it turned into a little “manifesto” and guideline on how to move around that little voice in my head that begs me to give up. It’s totally turning into a self-help guide. If I ever do achieve mad sucess I will try and publish it. First I have to practice what I preach and apply it to make sure that it works. Of course, there is no one solution fits all. My self-help book would be missing one key ingredient that every single self-help book has… and that is a saved marriage. But it’s more about establishing a relationship with yourself. The most important person in every relationship and situation is yourself. So! If I wasn’t scared of the Beyonce’s and Buzzfeed’s of the world stealing my content I would share what I got so far on here lol. Maybe I will… but slowly. To throw the content stealers off. #HatersBackOff #YesICameForBeyonce #HashTaggingLikeIts2012

I’m extra annoying today. I wanted to do more with my day but I struggled to get food in me. I won’t let that be a problem tomorrow. Also, I haven’t been able to “find NEMO” since the last time that I talked about it. Gaylord knows that I am trying. I think my libido died. If you don’t use it you lose it I guess. My doctor said that I might be asexual… I briefly looked it up and if not being completely ruled by my sex drive means that I am asexual then so be it. I hate labels. I just don’t need to be thinking about sex all day long. I don’t turn everything I do into a calculated piece of man bait!! K! But it’s not like I am repulsed by sex so I dunno what my issue is. Strangers are just gross… or maybe I’m afraid of my sexuality? Nah! Right? K I’ll stop making this entry awkward.

I think the best thing to do to make this entry better is to end it. Then highlight it and delete it. Smash my computer with an empty wine bottle and throw it in a ditch. Light that ditch on fire and make the sun release a solar flare to burn up our atmosphere… followed by gamma-ray bursts from a neutron star for good measure. Then swallow this solar system up into a black hole… or yo mama

Do you think that Saturn used to be a dwarf star with its own planets that got locked into our current suns orbit? Some scientists are starting to think that and that event is also in a lot of ancient scripts. Our planet used to orbit Saturn in this scenario. This event was relatively recent. Within recorded history. Allegedly.

Last updated October 15, 2019