um. food intake. and vit. d thingy. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

firstoff. to the person who noted on my previous entry: 1. thank you. i might get back to you when i’m in a better state of mind. no bc i’ve not been feeling well lately i’ve been. irritable. so.

ug. so i ate last night. my appetite is pretty much. well i don’t have one as of late. i ate a lot on. ok what was last night? oh right yesterday was tues. so i had pasta. cause well i was hungry. w/ sauce and um. garlic. but not all of it. and i usually eat all of it. so. sometimes depending on when i go to the. store [i’m having trouble thinking lately sorry] i’ll have enough food to. where i’ve got enough. to have 2 things/day. like if i get tomatos and pasta. then i’ll have tomatos. during the day/at night. earlier. at night as i have pasta late at night. now cherries i eat the day of. um the day i get them i mean. and sometimes if i get 2 big bags of chips i’ll have enough for the next day. cause i only have so much money. uh. but i only got 1 bag of chips so. i’ve been really thirsty though. and that’s what bottled tea is for. yay. i keep the tomatos in my rm. [btw they shouldn’t be kept in the. fridge. i know this cause i recently asked my mom] and then. you know whenever i get hungry. well. yeah. i’m weird about having food from the kitchen during the day at where i live.

so last night i. what did i do? i spent a few hrs. looking for copies of receipts. yes i keep copies of my receipts. i learned in college. no bc. i was wondering when the last time i’d bought pb was. cause i used to buy it every few months. um. but then summer happened and i. got cherries. like fresh cherries not the dried kind. and i started buying tomatos the cherry ones. little dudes. oh. right and apparently it’s been quite awhile since i bought. pb. so soon i’ll get some more. i love pb.
it’s weird: it’s been awhile since i’ve talked about my food intake. i don’t usually.
so yeah i hope i find my appetite. and yes this is partially a joke. no well i’m a small woman to begin w/ so. i mean...........the lack of isn’t terribly vexing right now...........but i am aware of it.

oh i have news. besides the whole. eczema lack of appetite thing. well. so on fri. i have an appt. w/ dr. earp the new dr. lady. i saw her for the first time last. dec. the 13th i think it was. um. right and i’m going to see her bc. .............. i. starting fri. [which is when i come back. from my mom’s i usually go thurs. - fri. but my mom & i are going to an event thing on sat. so. a festival] um. well no. it’s supposed to start sat. but as i’ll be at my mom’s sat. ............anyway. so starting sun. i will be exempt. from taking the duality vit. d + calc. thing at my house. which. means that will no longer. be a stack against me. it’s kindof stupid: not only. is the lady required. to document when any of the clients [that’s what me and my housemates are referred to in. in the system. ‘clients’] do/don’t take their meds/med like things. but no. she has to actually. watch me take the duality thing. yeah fuk no. and that rule just doesn’t work for me. and there’s nothing i can do to change it. i mean it’s not my rule. or hers. but if i’m exempt. then i won’t have to follow that rule. i refer to her. on fb as my ‘emotional groundskeeper’ which. makes her sound like she’s my psych. no well i mean groundskeeper but not in the literal sense. obviously. well cause a groundskeeper of course. is someone who looks after the well. grounds. ok so my ‘figure-tive groundskeeper’. as i don’t like the word ‘caretaker’ to me that has a negative connotation. but she doesn’t check in w/ me every day about my DLAs. [daily living activities. most people say ADL but i don’t like MLA style so. mla is um. modern language association i think.]. and thank god. yeah i lived w/ someone like that and it didn’t work out too well. clearly being that i moved. out of her house. and this was steph. er so. yeah the lady has to get something signed from the dr. lady stating i’m exempt, or something. it’s not just. ‘oh ok. so this’ll be a verbal agreement thing’. no it’s a whole fukin process. um anyway so i’m excited about that. well not. like. not the appt. exactly. no but it’s the being exempt part. the eczema thing will not be mentioned. um. no cause the appt. is about. me being exempt and me. mentioning the eczema would only. contradict that so. [well not the mention of it in and of itself.].
i’d say more but well um. i’ve been pretty damn irritable like i’ve mentioned. so i should probably stop before i go off.