the. other thing that happened last wk. and eczema. and last night. in 2007: March 1: transferred fom FOD

um. so. and i know this may be a little unusual. but i’m kindof a quirky person so. well. so when i go to my mom’s i take. grocery bags the fabric kind. but i have the 3 inside the one. and in them i put my down coat. yes. i sleep under my coat on top of a blanket. i don’t like comforters as they’re too heavy although not all of them are. apparently. um. but. i’d rearranged the bags differently. then i normally do. and so i thought. i’d left 2 at the house. untill a few days later when. i looked inside the one and there they all were. well godamnit.
ok so. i got this eczema stuff from the dollar store today. i was embarassed buying it but the lady didn’t say anything. thank god. i think. my eczema might clear up in a wk. cause that’s how long it says to use the stuff for. might. um today. i was tired. though being out helped w/ me being less cold. ug i’m tired. as usual. when i was at starbucks i had doritos. and after i ate. i felt like overfull. not like full in the good sense. i haven’t been thirsty to i have to force myself to drink water. vitaminwater. flavored water. i had 2 bottles today.
last night. well so like i said. i double rinsed my laundry cause that’s what people are supposed to do when they have eczema. well so at 9:10 which. is to me way past time for the lady to bother me. she knocks on my door i answer and she goes ‘is there a reason you’re washing your oven mitts twice?’. well. she wants to know what not. if there is. i hate when people do that. and then i’m ‘it’s what i do’ which. well it is. cause i have a thing w/ even numbers and don’t want her changing that. that’s why at times i won’t tell people a whole lot. and i agreed. that the cutoff time for doing laundry is. 10 p.m. right but there was no time frame on that agreement..........so. here’s the thing: i only have the one day to do my laundry. whereas she has 6. so. she has more days to do hers then i have mine. and the reason. i only have the one day is cause i have anxiety and as mentioned. can’t have any sort of change. like at all. and last night. i didn’t feel good and was bothered by that. so it wasn’t a good time. that laundry thing would’ve bothered me anyway. like i’m sorry for double rinsing and doing what i thought was the right thing for me. and now i feel like. defensive towards her bc of that. and emotional. though emotions are harder to control when people are tired i’ve read. so.