P.R.F. Prosebox 8/19/2019 in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019

Good morning, good afternoon, or good evening; you’re joining us here at P.R.F. Prosebox this entry being put forth on Monday, August Nineteenth, Two Thousand Nineteen.

I am in a great deal of pain physically and what I took last night to help did NOT help. IN FACT, it made things worse because I was “thrashy” all night to the point where I significantly damaged my glasses and managed to kick the fan off of its stand. The fan, by the way, is typically 3 feet away from the bed. So… that thrashy. Not to mention that I was an hour late to work as well. I suppose one saving grace is that Wife and Nala were not home last night or forced to put up with it. I am still in a great deal of physical pain and my own emotional shit is not making that any easier.

Honestly… Friday was a day where my not being in the office was no big deal. And today feels like a day where my not being in the office would be no big deal. But I’m a dedicated employee that wishes to overcome my limitations and be present and capable. Pain, whether physical or something else, will not prevent me from doing my job!

In other news, I sent an E-Mail to about 6 different Individual Therapists. Of course, the nearest therapist to my town is still over an hour away. We wonder why Rural Communities are experiencing Trumpism, Meth Addiction, and Suicide?! Basically, my E-Mail was “I am an Assistant County Attorney with a busy schedule in need of individual counseling to deal with Anxious Attachment, Work-Related Stress, and Marriage Difficulties. Scheduling is always the most difficult thing, so I was wondering about your availability for evening/weekend appointments.” We’ll see if I get any positive responses.

This relates back to a recent post (and then posts less recent) but I am constantly embarrassed at myself for finding this woman so attractive. Like… I know that her whole thing is to be “eye candy” and all… and I am aware that she had a brief stint as a pornographic actress… so it isn’t like I’m insane for finding her attractive. But the fact that she’s into cosplay and video games and looks like this… I just. I’m upset with myself that I am attracted to her.

Well… I’ve got over 50 prosebox entries to read. A single hearing today. And Pain to deal with. So… better get to it.