Return of the ex in ❅journal 2019❅

So my ex returned, after their ex cheated on them. They where heartbroken, turning my best friend for a relationship which enraged me. They confessed to my best friend, J after apologizing to me for leading me on and breaking my heart.

I went off, texted them all the shit needed and they apologized refusely. It was done. They told me how after they left me their life along with their alters fell apart (ex has DID) and how every partner they got used them besides me. How they regretted breaking up with me, how they realized they weren’t infact homosexual but pan as they had said/believed when we first met. How they’d do anything to get me back.

I had a full blown mental break after this, crying to my online friends who semi knew myex and encouraged me to block them again. But I can’t because of something that no one really knows. And other things.

Around the end of our relationship, we experimented with regression. My ex has a toddler aged alter and regresses themself so I typically would take care of them when it would happen/the alter would front. But then I revealed how I tended to regress when stressed, I mean you have no idea how fucked my irl is.

So their my caretaker also, so I follow their rules and everything, even tho we are LD I kinda have to. It’s for my own good really…