Husbands and Lovers in General musings

It is so not easy trying to balance two men. Especially when one is not particularly stable in the first place. F was annoyed yesterday because he could not call me on his way home because it was Sunday and hub was here. I texted. 'oops' and he replied "F him". I guess hub was annoyed by the texts and was very pouty, talking about how his life is disrupted and he has to "worry all the time". I told him only if he chooses to. What does he really have to worry about? Am I leaving? Highly doubtful. So when I texted F this morning I told him hub was barely speaking to me and he wrote, "Sorry but the Idiot is living in a fantasy world for over 24 years. He is looking through rose colored glasses and not wanting to believe the truth that he never really had a wife in the true sense of the word or marriage." Then, "I don't mean to sound mean but was it a marriage really? Would you have died for this man?" I sent back, 'He'll get over it or at least settle back down. I'm not worried' "I guess not. You upset with me?" 'No, of course not! I'm not upset at all' "You did not reply to what I said so I was not sure" 'I thought I answered you...I said no..I would not die for him' (Old, stupid me would have added, but I would for you, but I didn't). So texting on phone with lover, while IM'ing on computer with husband.....my brain hurts.