Update by Phone in Book Six: Trying to Hold On 2019

I hate writing on my phone so I shall be quick.

Counseling was good. We got to the heart of our dysfunction. Not surprisingly it all comes back to attachment. I am Anxious Attachment (duh, all actors are) and Wife is Absent Attachment.

Basically, I tend to really want and need attention (why I so often ask if I am feeling appropriately because I have long been aware of my Anxious Attachment and try to balance that).
Wife? She’s never attached to anyone. Ever. Which explains her weird relationship with her parents. And why she basically needs to be REMINDED that she is in a marriage.

So… that is information. Honestly, doesn’t mean much and doesn’t change things. It provides Wife with a starting place if she decides she would like to WORK. And that is the point. Is she going to work? Does she want to? Does she have any interest? Only the next few months will tell. Plans haven’t changed. There are 5 more months of the year. Miracles can’t be expected. But will there be any efforts? Any attempts? Any good faith, sincere, genuine try? We’ll see.

I hadn’t written yet because my cold went sideways. When we got back from Counseling, I vomited my entire lunch and have been in bed since.