Trigger in Current Events

I’ve been feeling a little speechless lately. I exposed myself to a bit of what is going on in the world these days and I’ve just been shook all week. It’s hard to feel like I am allowed to go on when people of the world are suffering. I was born into this privileged life. There should be a place in this world for everybody. Why do we all have to be fighting?

Anyways, so like… frig. I dunno. So like, my brother in law comes home today. I’m a little stressed about it because I always feel some type of way about it. My sister said something to me the other day that felt a little condescending in regards to my employment situation. I do know that they want me to move out. I want that too. They are picking up new couches tomorrow and my sister keeps saying “I don’t know where we are going to put them.” I already know that her husband will stuff them into my space here in the basement. Right where I workout. He won’t ask or care. Their family is growing and they will need this space soon. I don’t know if I am making this a big deal just because I have an addiction to needing SOMETHING to be “wrong” in my life. To blame for everything that I am feeling. I just feel rushed to get myself together. I usually do things at a glacial pace.

I am so relieved that Hetal finally put in her notice at work. I was fired from there three months ago and it is not up to anybody to manage my feelings about it but it has been hard listening to her talk about that place. My response has been to make fake complaints to head office to throw that place under the bus. I seem to want to bring their harassment issues to the media. Just for fun. Also, Karamjeet is on to me. She brought Hetal into the office to yell at her because somebody has been leaking information about how she runs the business to somebody who is forwarding it to head office. Everything that is said is true but she does not like looking bad. She’s a narcissist. Hetal just walked away, she’s quitting so why would she care? I introduced Hetal to Toni last weekend and next weekend we are all going to get together before Hetal leaves for India to get married.

I watched an interview that Tom Bilyeu did with a nutritionist that had a lot of cool stuff to say about nutrition and longevity and I was just upset when he brought up eating meat. I was open to hearing what he had to say about it but all that he had to say was that it was protein. Then what he had to say about cholesterol was just fucking stupid and reckless. Whatever though, I’ve just been triggered all week anyway so… yeah. I’m just trying to think of things to write about on here lol. I’ll quit while I’m ahead.