Hang It - 23.02.14 in Your Face

Plagued by suicidal thoughts today. Not to the point where I will take action, but still plain awful. I feel absolutely tortured. My heart isn't just bruised, it's torn open. I hate myself for letting one person hold the reins of my emotions, but I gave them to him willingly. He is the one mistreating the privilege. I know he must be angry with me for some perceived slight, but I am not a mind reader, despite him thinking I am.

I just hurt so much. I need answers. I'm so tired of this life. I want peace and stability - it's obvious that I can't handle uncertainty.