My new boyfriend ig in ❅journal 2019❅

R is a funny story, I’ve gotten attached at a record speed of a WEEK. I loose track of time so i thought it had been longer but nope a week.

I have no idea if R considers me a girlfriend or not, pretty sure he considers me his property NGL. I’m rather confused and conflicted on how i feel about that.

Mostly it’s my fault for asking could i be a more affectionate friend, im a big hugger and cuddler with my close friends. But i don’t wanna trigger or anger anyone by just doing that without asking ya know. He then started talking to me about my insecurities and how i felt unloved by others, then said he’d do that for me.

This happened a bit before my encounter with Esty. So i said the stupidish shit ever, good girl. Fuck me and my still past ex connected brain!

And that was like a freaking switch had gone off in him because now every ten minutes i have text him a variation of the following in this situation.

R: Tell me that you’ll always be mine.
H: I’ll be yours.

It can’t be anything but me repeating. I’m ok with it because i secretly thought R was kinda hot tho he does have some qualities that make me feel bad abt myself every timw i do something he doesnt like. What ever ig.

Note: literally a few minutes after i posted this he asked me out sksksks.