Irritating sad and expected. in Bittersweet

My one friend found someone closer to her, and now like i guessed. Im just out. No point in talking to me anymore, someone is closer.
I cant tell you how many times in my life, ive been edged out.
I need a circle. I need people to really care and enjoy being with me.
I really need to not care so much about what other people think. But i do.

My goals down south, are to find people who are a better circle. Mid 30s and im still hoping to someday make a real friend. It can happen right? lol.