Opulence in Current Events

My sleep was disturbed by my frequent need to void my bladder last night, when did I turn 40? I am still getting over a cold which is taking a toll on me tbh. I don’t want to be a man bitch and cry about it so I won’t.

I haven’t had anything to say all weekend. Today is no different. I am going to see the season 11 girls from Rupaul’s Drag Race tonight. I am going with Jess and she is going to scream the whole time. I saw a clip of Mercedes do a lip sync to a Bollywood song and I hope I get to see that tonight. That would be so opulent.

Ok, maybe I will have a man flu moment. I feel awful. Absolutely awful. It’s like I just keep feeling worse. I’m not a DayQuil or Buckley’s kind of girl. I don’t believe in getting rid of cold and flu symptoms because the coughing, sneezing, runny nose and fever is how your body gets rid of a virus. I am just worried because I broke out into shingles the last time that I had a cold. I really did turn 40… also I did something dumb the other day and used mouth wash knowing that it would burn an ulcer in my mouth. Why do I do this to myself?

I should be getting my life together today but I am also the queen of procrastination. I put the Tom in tomorrow.

I have been talking to this guy on Grindr named Tristan. Whenever somebody asks me what I am looking for on there I always answer chat because I literally just want to chat. I feel like I am supposed to place an order for delivery whenever people talk to me.
What are you looking for?
Yes, I would like a white masc NSA powerbottom who can host. No face pic no service. Have a personality. Don’t be an asshole. Etc etc
Romance is dead people. Anyways, Tristan and I have a lot in common and I feel like a bad human because I am not attracted to him. I feel bad because I find 99.9% of the people that I see on Grindr deeply unattractive. Why am I so shallow? I get triggered when I see a twink with a sassy profile. You’re a 4 stopping thinking that you’re a 10 just because you discovered eyeliner and because you’re getting the same random unsolicited dick pics as the rest of us… you’re not special! Be humble queen! Oh! Do you know what else grinds my gears? “Straight guys” that gays and girls find so hot. Some random guy will walk by or whatever wearing a hat, sunglasses, a hoodie and baggy jeans and these gals and gays will be like “omg he is so hot.” And I’m like “bitch! You can’t even see him!” I’m not triggered by the straight guy, I am triggered by the queens that see so much sex appeal in that. Whatever floats your boat I guess. For me I like a guy who makes an effort. When the haircut looks fresh and the clothes actually fit his body that’s when I will swoon. I wear a $5 shirt and it looks like a $100 shirt when I wear it because it actually fits my body. Just saying… and also I’m sounding conceded. Sorry about it.

I just deleted a huge rant about everybody in my life. Apparently I am a salty queen today. I have a lot to rant and complain about regarding myself so I guess that I was just projecting that hate back on to the world. I should leave this entry alone now.