so. idinno. in 2019

no i do know. i still haven’t heard feom evan. yes he has email. and yes i’ve emailed him telling him to call. but thing is. i don’t think the guy checks his email that often. so. and as i might’ve mentioned. he doesn’t have a good track record w/ phones. so.
i know. it’ll hurt like hell when i finally do tell him. but i don’t want him to expect that. we’re uh still friends when we’re well. not not. really. but telling him is the right thing to do. like come on! i don’t want. to as i’ve also. mentioned go through Pat’s mom or evan’s mom for this. that really doesn’t feel right. so again i’m just waiting. but ya know there was a time some um. time ago where i’d stay at my park and wait for him. and some time ago i stopped. that. like ok well i’m done. i’ma get on w/ my life either way.
oh so here’s something most people don’t know: so a little over 6 yrs. ago. well i was um 25 my sister was 22 23. this was back spring 2013. and after i told her my ex i had broken up. i was stupid enough to tell her someone else was staying w/ me. actually i think i liked my sister at the time. and so she’s ‘ok if you tell him to go then i won’t tell Mom’. and i’m ‘ok’. and either later that day or some time after i told him. ‘they don’t want you staying here anymore’. see i’m not v. direct. also. the first night he stayed over. was the day of Pat’s service. it was massively snowy that day i remember that. and it’s not like i was going to be cold enough to turn him away. i mean come on. esp. not on that day. i don’t remember a whole lot of what happened once. we got to my place but apparently i drank. [well. when didn’t i.]. and i only know cause i asked him. i’m not sure. whether or not i got back to my sister. but some time later she my dad came over. and it became this whole big thing. and evan left.
so evidently what he was doing was known as squatting. um. but long as someone contributes in some way. i don’t care. he bought a few groceries once. and he. emotionally contributed in that he provided company.
yeah actually what happened was. that at some point i thinnk the day he left. my sister and the guy she was dating at the time. drove him to the courthouse. to get an order against him. yes that kindof order. [and yes this is vague on purpose.]. but. so i was reading up on it recently. and. what i learned that’s. that are the reasons for him. to have. gotten. that kindof order. dodn’t apply to things between him i. yeah one night in april we almost had sex. yes. almost. completely consensual. and he gave me hickeys when i was staying w/ me but again. consensual. he never damaged anything. so. i don’t think they were. applying for it on my behalf at least i sure as hell hope not. i certainly wouldn’t’ve. no of course not. if anyone should have one against them

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