Saturday in New Diary

Well it is Saturday morning. I went to bed early last night and got up around 2:30 this morning. I made it through the night with no smoking. Actually, I started to smoke a cigarette and then began coughing. I put it out, I almost cracked but I made it through the first night.

I really need to quit smoking. Whenever I have a strong urge for nicotine I think of myself getting very sick such as coughing and not being able to breathe. I imagine myself getting some form of cancer or developing heart problems. I picture myself not being able to live unless chained to oxygen. Then I imagine myself saving all kinds of money and health improving. I can try to think of all the negative consequences from smoking then I see all the benefits from being nicotine free. Yes, I am going to make it through. I am going to lick this nicotine habit once and for a all.

I haven't been smoking all that long. I quit about six or seven years ago. But this winter has been so awful. I suffer from depression and SAD. I think it was really bad in January. This was when I started to smoke. I don't know why I started to smoke again after so many years. But much to my regret I caved in. But I am going to quit. Once you pick up an addiction it is easier to stop if you stop before it gets in y9ur system I am going to quit now and hopefully it will not be so hard.

That is about it for now.