Cynical. in The Awesome Chronicles of me.

Welp. I’ve grown so cynical in my old age.

Here is the details.
I’m leaving for gencon on Wednesday. I’ve kind of hyped myself, but i’m still very -meh- on it. Ive found a few more things i’m interested in, I got my car looked at (after a near disaster with my battery) But i’ll be glad when its next week this time, cause I’ll be home.

Now here is the cynicism. My mom is still sick. And she will be alone while i’m not there obviously.

My brother is kind of supposed to check in on her while i’m gone and finish assembling this dresser he started to assemble (Cause I would of done it but those instructions were not the best) He started this in MAY. Its the end of July.. Early August.

Now he says his work might need him, he works at a steel mill and has strange hours. The logical side of me should believe this. But this is my brother, the not logical and cynical side of me has especially taken over with him. We couldn’t borrow his car while mine was down for repairs because it needed oil, but he drove it 40 minutes away? So i’m so cynical when it comes to him, basically I have a hard time believing him for anything.

I feel kind of bad for leaving my mom for this but everything is paid for, and I’m already packed, and my mom is even telling me its okay, but what if she has to go to the hospital? One thing about ambulance people is you need to corral pets, and Boots is an escape artist, so if she has to call them she can’t corral boots. I’m already a ball of anxiety, and its even higher now.

Crap. I have no clue, I don’t even know if i can enjoy gencon. My hype factor was low and this isn’t helping.

Oh well ill try.