Don't give up without a fight in Hello

So I've planned to give our relationahip another 6 months from the 01/03/14. I'm heading to Sydney in 2 weeks to meet my sister in law (hubbys sis) and will be back on the 2nd. I have to have the conversation with him this Sunday and see how he reacts. Oh btw I was reading the traits of a Scorpio man in a relationship and the vindictiveness that I thought he didn't possess is what this is, the shutting me out everything is just as I read so yup I'm not the only one who is living through this shit. But I get it, it is his instinct however being human means learning to grow and depend on intellect above instinct so I'm going to see if he can budge even a little in the next 6 months that is if he doesn't behave impulsively and break it off before. I doubt he'd do that but I don't know. Oh and before I move on I just want to point out that I don't think that all scorpio people are the same I believe that we are affected by the astrological position of stars when we are born and that forms a basis of our instinct but does not define us however the struggle to sober up is a little more difficult for some as opposed to the others as a result of this. There are many sober and good scorpio people I know, my best friend is,one!!!

The problem with us is I've loved him too much and unconditionally and he thinks he can take the love for granted so now you gotta work for it Mr or lose it. I don't care, I don't fear living alone. I will find what is meant for me thanks to my wishy washy dreamy nature I can already see a million possibilities of how I'd spend my life, maybe none of them will come true but I've accomplished a few of my dreams so maybe in time ill accomplish the rest too. I'm happy to change and make sacrifices but I need to spell it out that its not going to be a one way street, if he wants me to pull my act together then you have to do the same. Anyways I'm writing a list of things about him that bother me and the changes I need to seevfor me to continue giving my best. If he can understand it then great if not then we'll so be it. This is marriage, its not childs play, its not some stupid dating game. It has to be a 2 way street and I refuse to be the only one working in this marriage or feeling depressed or misunderstood.

Please wish me luck for having the conversation. :-)