Facebook official. *E* in 2014

Because now hes begging me to stay, and making promises that he breaks 4 minutes later. lol Last night he cried. First time I've seen that in a while. Part of me thinks he was faking it to make me feel guilty and stay, part of me wonders...

So I told my friend (Tiffany) that I was looking for an apartment, she didn't think I was serious about leaving him until I asked her if she knew anyone who was renting. Her dad works with someone who rents places around here, so she gave me his number. I thanked her. This was yesterday.

Last night, Chris made it facebook official. He mainly just wrote a status about our 13 years being over, he didn't change his relationship status, mainly because he didn't have one... I took "Married" off mine a while back. But today he still begged and begged for us to try. Funny. I wanted it to work, and I tried. But he didn't. Classic case of Too Little Too Late. Figures. So I held my ground, and said we still aren't together. We are living under the same roof, and if I see some positive changes, I might change my mind down the line, but as of now, we are single. He got mad and said that there was no point on trying to be the man I want him to be, if I'm not WITH him while he tries. So basically hes just telling me hes going to continue to be a dickfacedloser as long as I'm not officially with him.

REASON 4, 604, 552 that we aren't together. Because you're a vindictive SOB. Maybe you could just try to be nice to me, and a father to the kids, and let me know that I should stay with you because its worth it, instead you do this. Well sorry hun. Can't do another day of your bullshit.

Thing is, if I were kidless, I wouldn't care. He can treat me like this all he wants (not really) but if I didn't have kids around watching him be a complete retard all the time, then maybe I would stick around (doubt it). In this case, its all about the kids. Its all about him being a good father. And ME being a good mother. I feel like together, we suck. Who knows, maybe separate we might fail too, but at least they won't have to watch him treat me like scum. Its not really that bad, I'm just annoyed. But then again, who knows, maybe we will be kick ass parents if we weren't around each other pissing each other off all the time. I hope thats the case.

Or I hope hes serious, and smartens up. In the meantime, I'm single. I told him though, I wasn't looking, I'm not seeing anyone, I'm not sleeping with anyone, so if thats his big problem, then hes got nothing to worry about at all. I'm living here, with him, co parenting and thats all.

Definitely going to try my best not to wind up screwing him. lol Argh.

Kristen <3

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I forgot to mention, that the house we are talking about getting last year, is actually happening, but I'm not having anything to do with it. I support his decision, if thats what he wants to do. Hes doing it the right way with getting a background check etc so I'm not worried. Plus he said that if this all goes the way it should, in three months the basement apt will be livable... so there is that...

Kristen <3