"Don't let your past steal your present" in Current Events

In my last entry when I said that I did not care about what happens to my sister’s boyfriend I did not mean it that way. His family came to take him back to his city today. He was supposed to be admitted into a rehab facility over there, that was the plan anyway. He was taken back to the hospital this morning where his blood alcohol content tested 5x higher than his DUI. He needs to go into detox before he can go to a rehab centre but they’re unable to do that just yet because we also learned today that his liver is dying and his spleen is ready to rupture. They need to keep him for observation first to see if his liver can even heal itself. They can’t get him into detox until then. If his liver can’t heal then I don’t even know what his options are. Honestly, I don’t think he is getting out this alive. I really hope that he does. He has a teenage son that he is close to. He has a lot to live for. Addiction is ugly and I’m sorry that he made the choices in his life that led him here.

So now, my sister is currently free of him. For now anyway. I don’t even know what would be going on in her mind right now. She was supposed to come over this weekend but now she is stuck at home because of their stupid dog. I seriously fucking hate that damn dog. They’ve been “stuck” renting a house that they can’t afford because of one stupid animal. He’s too violent to give away and they don’t want to sentence it to death by bringing it to the humane society. Like, my brother in law is perfectly willing to take it to his mom’s house, out of town, where they can put a bullet in it. Ugh, why did they ever think they could commit to a dog? There is no power in that house I might add. Her bf drank all their money and left nothing for the electrical bill. My mother returns from out of town on Sunday and then maybe my sister will be moving in… somehow, someway, someday? She will have to say goodbye to her animals though. I just wish my mother was in the fucking city! Then my sister can be there at her place. Ugh, my mother just dumps everything on me and goes camping every other weekend. She and her bf retire in four years and they are trying to find all the best places to camp out at? Or whatever. Nothing makes them cancel or come home early. Nothing. Not weddings, not funerals and not even my niece’s birth. She had us when she was young. She had options but she chose to give each of us 18 years of her life and told us all that when we all move out she is taking her life back. So these are her party years and her travel years and whatever and we ALL respect that. As hard as it is sometimes. When things do count she IS there, don’t get shit twisted people.

I’m just very worried about my sister right now because we are so close to getting her to leave that monster. She’s basically on suicide watch and now she’s alone in a house with nothing to do but pet her dog. Gawd! This man of hers just keeps ruining everything. His liver better make it so that he can be taken away by his family and out of our lives already. I just want my sister back. I just don’t have the patience for addicts. I did, once upon a time but not anymore. I’ve been there, done that. I can’t do it again. They only want to provide for themselves and they will use and hurt anybody that they can to get them as close to their next fix as possible. I don’t believe in this “sticking by my man #loyatly” bullshit. It’s not safe. I’m not qualified to help them and why should I? Blah, I just need my sister and my family safe from him. I’ve been calling this shit since forever and now he is probably going to die and I’m just so fucking pissed off about it. I’m just hurt and I’m confused, there is no right way to feel right now. Addiction is messy and I just want this chapter to be closed as soon as possible so that our family can move on. He needs to move on to. He needs to start 12 steppin’. Admit his problem, own his choices and hold himself accountable for all the damage he has done to people etc etc.

Last updated June 14, 2019