My Head is Spinning.... in Dealing with the Devil

He had court today......I was hoping for a scene from the show night court… I didn’t get it. He saw me and was transfixed. He tried mouthing me something and I just rolled my eyes. Probably for me to come visit. But I can’t. He was calm and I want to say polite. Lets just say there was no outbursts and he just answered the questions properly. Most of the time he stared at me but not in the I hate your guts way. The fact he didn’t see red with me being there and that he was acting “normal” makes me think that they are medicating him. A month in that place he should be a fucking mess. I know its definitely not shangri-la. They have a reputation of treating inmates bad over the years especially ones that are less than well behaved which I know he was going in there.

I talked to the DA they promised me they would get him some help mentally wise. I’m hoping. I guess one doctor has stated he was incompetent and one didn’t so they are waiting on another eval from a doctor. I asked if they had access to all his records including the other county/counties and she said they should. As we were talking they brought in a letter that he wrote. I wish I could have read it but they told them it had to go to his defense attorney. I guess he went off on the judge the day he was arrested and that’s how the order of protection and him being in jail came to be. At least that’s what the district attorney said. I believe it… He wasn’t so nice 2 days before. They were a little leary of him… them being the bailiff, DA and anybody else near him. They made sure he was gone before I was able to leave like I wouldn’t see him when I got home? He is going to leave they told me.... I tried not to roll my eyes. I just nodded . Like hell he was leaving.

I’m hoping with all my might 3rd doctor says he’s incompetent. I need him to get help. I need this to end with him getting help. He can’t be on his own. He can’t be around the kids. I can’t worry about him being on the streets.