The Battle Continues in meh...

I broke down and talked to the landlady about my neighbor again.

Monday night marked 6 nights in a row of him watching whatever it is he’s been watching TV all over his unit. LOUDLY. I figured perhaps he would get it out of his system but I guess not. So I of course recounted to landlady what has been occurring. AGAIN.

This time, I asked her, if I find a non-invasive way to soundproof the wall, costing them no labor and no money, can I do it. She said that if I find a solution to let her know. That’s all I needed to hear. So it’s pretty much on. I’m going to talk to my one friend who is always doing something and I’m going to consult with some of the guys around here and get some input. Because I’m going to get it done.

I came home last night and he had it turned down, but as the evening wore on, he thought he was slick and turned it up slightly. I went to my bedroom and slammed the door and shortly after that it went off.

It’s like if I don’t say anything to my landlady, he keeps it up like it’s no big deal. I haven’t complained, so it must not be bothering me. When I say something, he will cuss, argue, lie about something that I’m doing. He’s F.O.S. The landlady says, “He’s being an ass.” I want to remind her that in the lease there is a clause about loud music and being disruptive to your neighbors. I guess money is worth more than my peace of mind. ::insert side eye here::

My friend M told me about an app that monitors crime in your neighborhood and the surrounding areas. I have been disheartened by the amount of updates I got yesterday. It wasn’t in my immediate neighborhood or the surrounding areas, but kind of close. There was an exception or two. One being the next street over where someone’s Ring caught someone looking around their door, perhaps for keys to get into the house. I think it was the same house that their patio furniture was stolen. Also the building down the street from me, that I reported to have the building boarded up, has been getting entered. Even now, part of the back privacy fence has been knocked down. Someone locked the gate and put a lock and chain on it. I guess those crackheads said, I’ll show you! Just a nice section of fence down. ::smh::

I got an alert from the app that asked how I liked it so far. I said I didn’t. Kid you not. I got a response: “Awww… You want to leave feedback and talk about why?” I started laughing and said, Of all the condescending bs…LOL It’s not that I don’t like the app, it’s all the HAPPENINGS that popped up. Yesterday was a huge burglary day for some reason. ::smh::

But I continue to pray for protection for me, my family, and everyone determined to live a right life.

Other than that, I got nothing. Oh wait…

So one of the little girls, my “niece” to be exact, at the church gets upset easily and likes to run off and cry and be mad when someone tries to correct her. The older girls are going to do a liturgical dance at church for Easter. She takes dance at the school for performing arts. What does she do exactly at school when she’s not getting it and she has to be corrected then?? ::smh:: Anyway, my stepmother said to me that there needs to be a class or something for the girls about self esteem and then added that I should be the one to do it. I said How?? I don’t have self esteem. Who’s going to teach me about it so I can teach them?? I started laughing. I agree these things need to happen, but the whole youth department needs an overhaul. The Youth Pastor (cousin C-May) is busy positioning himself to “take over” when my dad decides to step down (while being humble, and respecting my dad’s leadership he’s playing it smart; being at his side, learning, and biding his time-this is what I see) that everything the youth department does is on his wife’s head. She, in turn, is frustrated because he’s so hands off. My stepmother use to be in charge, but she put them over it because they were young, they have children of their own.

I have an idea for the youth department but I am not equipped to carry out the tasks of it. There are always little details, but the major one is I’m not steeped enough in God’s word to fulfill it. If we are to be about kingdom building, then let’s be about our Father’s work starting with the children we’ve been charged with. I think, that with my stepmother opening this door, I will talk to her about it.

Part of the issue I see with our church is that everyone wants to live for God, but no one wants to give up their idea of what their life is for Him. No one wants to sacrifice what they do and who they are to really be about this life. I don’t have anything going on in my life that would distract me (except tv, but I do that at work-lol) so I’m always game to help. I go where the need is. I help out even if I don’t know what I’m doing. They don’t want what He would have them do for the sake of the kingdom to interfere with their lives and what they are trying to do for themselves. But that’s my unpopular opinion about church folks. Yes we need to enjoy life and relax, because He gave us things to enjoy, but there’s been too much of that. And trust, I understand that life can happen and get in the way when you are trying to do something worthwhile, but that’s when you press on in your faith. When you really want to do something, you will make time for it.

I’ve only been back since maybe end of November. I don’t step out or forward because I don’t want to overstep my bounds. I don’t have a role to play yet. Or perhaps, it’s unfolding and I don’t want to see it or I don’t want to step into it because I don’t want to be seen as trying to come in and change things. Dah, well…

Hope you have a great day.
Take care.

Kindest regards,
Sister