People in Riverdale

Fuck

So I am having like this bad mood lately. Just sad empty tired and drained

Is this how something that is supposed to propel you forward is supposed to feel?

I guess in some ways m. Life isn't perfect I guess.

What would I do otherwise.

I just so tired of people really. I can't care for them or connect with them or like them or trust them really.

I wish I could say oh I completely respect look up to or love this person but most ppl just let me down really.

It's like there is nothing in any of them. Dead empty inside. And I start feeling That way around them too.

I just wish I could meet ppl that I could connect w. Understand and feel safe with. But most I just cannot.

I don't know what it is. If it's where I live or what.

I've had chronic lonkiness most of my life even around people I feel disconnected from them, far away not totally enamoured by many really. I am in my head checked out and far away because when I really truely connect myself to who they are to me and everything the reality of it all is depressing and just crashes down on me.

Life's so much better in my head and fantasies sometimes.