Scheduling gratitude in Glowing world

I’m trying not to get overwhelmed. I’m trying to improve everything, because my standards are higher than they used to be. I’m taking steps to get a new job so I have a career so that I have financial security. I’m working on saving money by doing things like cooking more and waiting before spending on things that are not essentials. I’m trying to run three days a week. I want to spend more time with Kenny and organize my life so that we get to have sex more. I’m trying to keep the house relatively clean, which involves a backlog of cleaning that hasn’t been done in over a decade. I’ve gotten a lot done, but I keep seeing more things. I want to bellydance, get new clothes because some are overly worn, schedule a dentist appointment, renew my driver’s license, get my oil changed on my car, get a present for Brian and Stasha’s birthday.

I’m also trying to have time for myself. Hair and face masks. Reading. Journaling. Nice baths. Massages. Hell, masturbation. It’s hard to both accomplish a lot of goals and have time to just be peaceful. I try to keep Sundays still as a day for Kenny and I to just chill out. I’ve been prepping food on that day, but that’s about it. The dance last Sunday was really lovely.

I know I have to find stillness and gratitude for exactly where I am. Not only does that make me more pleasant to be around and attract more of the things that I want in my life, but also life is short. If I run around accomplishing everything but never stop to appreciate it, what the hell kind of life is that?

I’ve been trying to set aside time every morning to write down things that I’m grateful for. I did it every day for about a month, but I’m less motivated to right now. I just set alarms throughout the day to remind me of things that I need to be grateful for in general. Here are the things at the times I set them for:

You live in a beautiful climate. 7am
You’re making progress on your career. 10am
Your health is a fantastic gift. 1pm
Kenny loves you, and says you bring a lot of joy into his life. 5pm
Your friends adore you. 8pm
You have so much money, you are giving to others. 9pm
You have time. 10pm

I set them for every weekday. I’ll decide if I love it or hate it.