GAME CHANGER in New Chapter

So, yesterday, my world got flipped turned upside down. In a good way!

First, I heard back about my interview and I’m going in for a working interview later today to see if it’d be a good match. I’m really excited to have this opportunity and I’m expecting it to go well. I’ll be looking super cute and it’s a receptionist/pre-tech position at a private optometrists office, so nothing I can’t handle. So I texted P1 and told her that I had good news, shared it with her and then she says, I have good news too! I pressed her and she said I’d have to go over to her house to hear it. So I packed up my stuff and went over.

She asked me to move in with her and her husband! I was/am floored. I burst into tears and I have to be careful right now not to do it in the middle of Starbucks. After a year and a half of living in a van, I’m back into a brick and mortar! There’s a condition, and it’s that once I find a job, the first thing I do is find a therapist, which I accepted immediately. The struggle has been getting harder and harder to deal with and things were feeling more hopeless. I wasn’t in danger yet, but things were getting worse. So I’m going to find a therapist, and I’ll move in after this weekend. They’re kind enough to clear out the office so that I can have my own bedroom and private space. This is going to make such a huge difference in my life. Having access to running water, a proper bathroom, a kitchen to make nutritious food that’s stored at proper temperatures, light after the sun’s gone down, not to mention the myriad ways anxiety manifests itself.

I have a home without wheels, a place to be safe and focus on thriving and not surviving. I’m getting choked up again! Not to mention it’s a big move for me and P1, moving in together. I can’t express how happy I am that I’ll get to see her every day, even if it’s only in passing. That’s something I’ve missed from Illinois, but no longer! <3

Happy Valentine’s Day y’all. Love finds even the most wretched among us, I’m living proof.