Yesterday in General musings

F and I spent a good portion of the day on the phone together yesterday. Aside from the time I was out with my hairdresser for coffee and a "chat". It is truly amazing the "insight" she has into him from a half-hour or so spent in his company. She said he didn't even have to speak, as soon as she looked at him she knew all she had to know. It's a particular gift of hers she claims. Calling him a life-sucking black abyss, that he doesn't have any real feelings, that he isn't a "person"..I protested, 'oh come on, of course he's a person..' "not really". She told me, "oh, I have no doubt that he loves you, he keeps coming back to you, but it is only as much as he is capable of, and that's not much..would that really be enough for you?" He called as we were saying goodbye, and she said it was like I was a alcoholic...and I shouldn't be taking that drink. I felt awful about missing his call, but he called back awhile later. Of course he wasn't thrilled that I had met her, "Oh I'm sure she had some lovely things to say about me. So that's why you didn't answer" He was having some vision problems and trying to get to the eye dr. So we talked the whole time he was waiting to be looked at...sent me a pic of his dialated pupils. He said, "I won't let anyone ever hurt you, I would die defending you." I thought, but didn't say, who will protect me from you?