Abortions in Adventures of New baby and family

I myself am not pro abortion but I am for other people. you do not have the right to choose what other people do. That is how I feel. you don’t know the circumstances that they have to make to get to that decision in there lives. Obviously they are there with something going on that they wouldn’t want to be.

I look through all my posts and I live in NY and they passed a new Female reproductive law that females can have late term abortions and people are furious. Sigh.....
I look at my last pregnancy with twist and turns and yes I have an almost 3 yr old.
I did think about abortion more than once.
I also said that I’m not pro abortion myself. Even though it entered my mind and I feel more than guilty about it. Its the fact that it was an option and not no you have to let nature do its course. If you read about my last pregnancy on here or how it ended up.... you would want to know it was an option.
My water broke at 15 weeks. Stats say only 5% of babies make it at that point and most end up being extremely early. Micro-preemie Coupled with the fact he didn’t have enough fluid to properly develop...... so now you are talking a micro preemie with deformities if he survives. A life time of disabilities for what??? I’m not saying I didn’t love this child and wouldn’t love him less if he were disabled but knowing how that works in this country and the hardship for this child and the family… its not fair to anybody. To the unborn that would never wanted to live that way. To his other brothers that I was taking time away from to not having enough money to survive. I have worked with children with disabilities and my first has disabilities. I’m no stranger to them but the fight I have had to do with him to get him services is totally unfair. How fair is it really??? I sat night after night hoping and praying for the best outcome I could possibly have or to say good bye to him. This is not something that anyone should have to face. This is not a decision that is hastily made. The bad news kept piling up week after week till 24 weeks was right around the corner. Then it get real. Then it gets to the point he can make it.... the visions of a deformed micro preemie are real . To top this off I also found out I had placenta accreta. If you don’t know what that is look it up. It is a life threatening condition that can cause you to hemorrhage during labor.
So yes my life was in danger and yes he did have some deformities.....

Yes he did make it, yes I did make it and everybody is happy.

I know how lucky I was..... we were on the brink

I know if one more thing happened or was worse… disaster.
Just knowing that it was an option is sometimes comforting.