Sickening in Current Events

Yesterday I went out for dinner with the boys. Aside from the bad day that I had at work I did end my birthday on a good note. On my way home I had to drive home in our first blizzard and the roads were just awful. Thank god I had no vehicles around me. This morning it was a struggle to get my car out of the side street and I’ll be honest, I did not try that hard. I called into work for the second time ever. My roommates ended up doing the same as well. I’ve been waiting 3 weeks to get this place alone for just a couple of hours and I am going crazy about it. My brother in law was supposed to return to work today after his 3-week staycation. My niece was suppose to return to daycare and my sister was suppose to go to work but they all spoiled my plan to be the fuck alone. I am salty as fuck about it so I ended up having a depression attack over it. I just need people to be fucked off once in a while you know? I need headspace. I need to charge my batteries… chakras? I really am turning into a hippie. I just want to organize myself and set some targets for 2019. Everybody keeps coming into my space here and I can’t take it. This is why I stopped painting. Once my head and heart is in it I will lose it if I get interrupted or distracted… k, I finally figured out how to explain that. Barely. That goes for a lot of things in my life. I’m a high energy person with a big personality but at my core, I am still an introvert. People drain the fuck out of me so fast.

Last updated January 07, 2019