"I'M NOT HER" in "RESTLESS: POETICALLY-SPEAKING"

You’ll probably see me
an offbeat character at this party
a plain, simple girl-next-door
wondering what she could possibly offer

What? Who??
No, no way
I’m wondering if you do
see me like I see you too
the one who’s not really into this crowd
a phone in your hand, so distracted

I love how we talk
‘cause I’d love to interact
Perhaps we both stand out
slightly detached
from this current crowd

Still, I’m not her
I’m not insecure
nor a slut-shamer
I’m just not into being flirtatious
not even to guys like you

She can do what she likes with you
Nobody owns anybody
I’m as realistic as can be

I still smile politely
as she clings to you like you’re her boy
Maybe you are
No worries, I may never get that far

Soon this party is over
The night’s getting darker
We’ve exchanged numbers
but I ain’t calling you first

I just don’t hope for too much
I know where I stand
I’m just enjoying this moment
some rare, genuine,
friendly gestures from a handsome man

Maybe we’ll see each other again
Maybe we won’t
It’s just a temporary illusion
for me to enjoy, before it’s completely gone…

R.