Choices in Current Events

I had an anxiety attack last night. I suppose I have a lot of feelings that I will need to process sooner or later. That is what anxiety is right? Unprocessed feelings? I am patiently waiting for that clinic to let me know that they have a therapist ready to accept new patients. That should be in January. In the meantime, I have been holding it all down. I came to believe that negative thinking is a habit and I changed so much about myself and my life by reprogramming my thoughts to something more healthy. Not that I perfected it. I do have some demons that I need to slay. That pile of negative thoughts, however, is starting to get pretty heavy.
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I just spent this last week doing fuck all. It was my last week of holidays for the year and I spent it inside my room. I read some books and watched a lot of Netflix. That is not normal behaviour for me. I like to set goals and then inch myself towards them but I left this week blank. This week was a blur. I don’t feel guilty about it. I needed the headspace. I do, however, need to be a beast at going for what I want in life. My life has gotten so small and it just.keeps.getting.smaller.

Last updated December 09, 2018